Happy Pride 2019

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It’s June and you know what that means, right? It’s Pride Month! Usually, I’d dedicate a podcast episode to let you know of my coming out story but it’s already been said, so instead of re-recording that again, I’ll make a post here.

This year marks the 50th anniversary of the Stonewall Riots. The riots inspired the formation of many gay rights organisations such as GLAAD, PFLAG, and the Human Rights Campaign. As we honour the legacy of the Stonewall riots and the other riots that led to it, we celebrate the progress made by the LGBTQ community, but must also acknowledge the distance we still have to go to achieve full equality. Find a Pride event near you at HRC.org/pride.

Thank You

I’ll be honest with you: I never, ever thought I would be able to get married to a man. I really have to honour those before me and those of you now who have worked so hard to progress the basic rights I have now as a member of the LGBTQ+ community. Without the bravery and strength of those people before me, I know I wouldn’t be living as happy as I am now. So thank you for attending pride marches. Thank you for everything you do!

Comfort in my Own Skin–A Work in Progress

A few times in my podcast, I’ve said that it’s taken me a while to really accept who I am. I’ve realised that I’m not really 100% gay. I do like men more, and I guess that’s a good thing because I ended up marrying a guy. I’m happy with that. It’s not like I’m going to wake up tomorrow and decide I don’t like men anymore. I feel like I miss out on a few things, but I see it as a trade-off. That’s okay. I accept that.

Though I have moved to a rural/remote area of Australia, I can still be myself. My thinking is that if people don’t like me for who I love, and they want to give me a hard time, I’ll just leave them at it. Liking men doesn’t make me a terrible, evil person, no matter what someone thinks. They can disagree with me being gay, but I won’t force myself to change, and no one else can do that for me.

The thing now is that I am pretty content with who I am. Sometimes, people do say some negative things about me and it’s hard to let that go, especially for me. I need to learn to let that negativity drift away. It’s a work in progress, remember? 🙂

Again, Happy Pride Month!

Celebrate! Love yourself! Love other people (as much as possible–It’s not easy sometimes). Be kind to others and remember not everybody will agree with you. Just try to coexist if you have to and remove the negative people out of your life if you have to! Much love to every single one of you!

#32: A Year of Podcasting

It’s been one year since I posted my first episode of this podcast! A huge thank you for those of you who have been listening for this long! I talk about the future of this podcast, new equipment, and the redevelopment into Complicated Noise. I’m also developing a system to reward those of you who link to me, leave feedback, etc. I also chat about what’s happening lately and finally getting a new car.

TIPped Off

It’s been one year of The Idiologic Podcast! Can you believe it? Instead of throwing a huge party and inviting all the friends I don’t have here and making a huge speech, I’m just going to say a huge thank you to all of you who have popped in every so often to hear about what’s happening in my life. I know sometimes it’s really not all that exciting. I’ve said it a dozen times: I don’t expect that to be what I’m remembered for after I die anyway.

But, there is one thing I can tell you is that a name change is coming because well, I was never that impressed with the name of my podcast. It doesn’t really make much sense. I am not even really sure what an Idiologic is. I don’t expect anybody else does either because it’s pretty much misspelled anyway.

NOT the cover… even I know it’s ugly.

I’ve been in the process of renaming my podcast to Complicated Noise. It won’t be really changed much as far as content goes, but I hope that it gets better, especially at the end of the year. I’m looking forward to keeping the project going and to make it better. I’m pretty excited to get back to tthe USA and start recording again.

That’s why I’ve been really quiet lately (that and work has been keeping me busy). When things are working how they are supposed to, I will share it with you here.

I’ll talk more about this in my next podcast episode. 🙂

#31: USA-Bound (in Nov)

So, I’ve booked my trip back to the USA for about 10 weeks starting in November. I talk about my upcoming trip and my anxiety/stress levels with work and the crappy stuff I order from Wish.com. (This might seem like one of my ‘forced’ episodes because, well, it was. If I put it off, it was likely that I would get lazier and lazier.) I’m here though and that’s something, right?

Wish Trash

It feels like every time I come here to type anything, it’s apologising because I hardly show my face. I’m not apologising this time. Someone told me that I do that way too much and it’s a habit that I need to break. I said I would try to chill out with the perpetual sorry cycle.

Anyway, I’ve been a bit busy with work stuff. I’ve realised that I’m going to lose about 5 paycheques at the end of the year, so I thought maybe it will be smarter for me to work and save while I am able to. Right? Right. That’s the responsible and adult thing to do, I guess. I don’t want to be a burden at the end of the year for my family OR my partner.

I guess this is stuff I’m going to talk about in the next podcast episode. I bought a microphone but I got it from Wish, so it’s not working with my Mac and won’t work with my phone without the little adapter. It’ll work with my iPhone SE (possibly–haven’t tried). That’s if it works. I’m sure I could open the microphone up and it’ll probably be hollow. When will I learn that everything from Wish is a gamble or complete shit? (OK, if cheap and crappy is what they do. I know that.)

Oh, I did get a really bright digital clock from there… that’s not too bad but it lights my bedroom up at night (on the lowest brightness setting, even).

I’m rambling. I hope you guys are doing well! Catch you soon!

#30: Too Soon?

It’s been about 5 days since I last recorded, so I stumble around a bit. I talk about my uneventful holidays and the next holiday on Thursday, ANZAC Day.

Happy Easter

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Have I ever mentioned how much I love ducks?

I know I’ve already said it before, but I hope everybody is having a pleasant Easter break. Mine’s been pretty tame and quiet with the husband being gone. I still miss the guy a lot though. I haven’t been sleeping that well without him here, but it’s nice taking up the whole bed and sleeping diagonally on it.

Tomorrow is still a holiday, so things will be calm today and tomorrow which is a good thing.

Anyway, again, I hope you have a Happy Easter with whoever you’re spending it with! (And if you’re by yourself like I am, enjoy being with yourself!)

#29: Peep Show

Happy Easter to you! In this episode, I talk about my past Easters, what I’m planning to do this year, going back to the USA and my draft plans of what I’m going to do.

#28: Inferiority Complex

I talk about my inferiority complex and how it’s both hindered me and what I’ve been doing to overcome some of my problems related to it.

Slowing Down

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Hello everyone. It’s been quite a while since I’ve left anything on here because I’ve just been a little too preoccupied with work-related stuff. I had to take a half a day off today just to recharge. When I work, I work until the afternoon and I am absolutely knackered when I leave my workplace. For the past week or two, I’ve been going to bed about an hour after I get home and sleeping until the morning. I haven’t had much of an appetite and my mood has been a bit down.

I hope things improve, and I know they will.

Still have a new podcast episode coming tomorrow! Stay tuned.