Mardi Gras 2020?

I had Mardi Gras pictures, but they were all very blurry, so I had to find one on the internet.

In 2013, my good friend and I went to Sydney Gay and Lesbian Mardi Gras. I am a horrible photographer, so almost all the pictures I still have are incredibly blurry. I also told myself back then that it’s not something I need to do again. I was thinking about it last weekend and realised that it would be a good thing for my partner and me to go to since he’s never been. I think we’re gonna try to go next year.

I’ve never been one of those people (even when I was single), to go to events (or travel to new places, in general) for hookups, parties, and stuff like that because I don’t particularly enjoy being around a ton of people that I don’t know. (As you can see from the picture, it’s not a very good place to be if you don’t like being in huge crowds.) I think the experience would be really nice with J, so I think we’ll start planning for that. Hopefully I’ll be back from the USA by then. (Oh yes, did you know that I’m States-bound in November?)

If you’re planning to go next year, maybe you’ll see me. Maybe we can find some really good food and have a chat. Who knows?

TIP #25: Oh, Brother

I talk about why I am missing podcast episode deadlines and some incredible news I received from my family. I have a brother who I’ve never met!

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Dynamic Family

Over the weekend, I learned new things about my family and in the next podcast episode, I’m going to share them with you! I thought that I’d give myself some time to process a few things. That’s what you get to deal with next. I’m going to try to record today so it’ll be ready for Friday or Saturday. (I might have to start posting new episodes on Saturday, by the way… or at least Friday night.)

I’m just about to head off to drop a few things off at the real estate agent and walk the husband to work (to make sure he actually goes–not really).

TIP Episode is Delayed

Hey everybody. I hope that you’re doing well and you’ve had a good week. Originally, I was supposed to have a new podcast episode ready for you sometime this weekend, but I’ve had a role change at work that’s been taking a lot of my spare time. When I’m not working, I’m absolutely knackered and planning what’s going to happen tomorrow. I don’t know whether it’s permanent or temporary just yet. (I like what I’m doing now, but I am just extremely busy. I start later than I used to, so I finish later too. By the time I get home, I can fall asleep.)

I’m planning to be back next week. Remember, you can always take a look at the guide to see what’s coming up. (I update it every once in a while. Topics change. Dates change. It’s what I try to use to keep myself on track.)

I Miss the iMac G4 and Mac OS 9

One of the things I’m going to be talking about in my podcast is my love for some old, obsolete, but wonderful technology. Here are two of my favourite computer-related things:

iMac G4

iMac G4

I loved my iMac G4 but it’s been long-gone. I wish that companies still made such stunning and innovative products. I absolutely loved this computer. It was one of the most reliable and sexiest computers I’ve ever used. (I hated the mouse though because I don’t like Apple mouses.)

Mac OS 9+

Mac OS 9

My first Mac was the iMac G4 so I got Mac OS X and Mac OS 9 on my machine and loved using Mac OS 9 because I could customise it exactly how I wanted. I loved all the noises it made and loved the simple look. I crave the look of it, so I run Mac OS 9 in emulation. It’s not the same though. šŸ™

Coming Soon?

As I’ve said, I plan to talk more about the technology I love. I just don’t know when I am going to do it just yet!

TIP #24: Weight For It

I talk about what’s been keeping me busy lately (writing code and programming), my weight loss that my doctor is concerned with, and then I talk about food (scrambled eggs and breakfast burritos?!), physical weakness, and processing the death(s) in my family since the last podcast episode.

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Keeping a Safe Distance

I used to be one of those people who used to post things on Facebook at least once a day. As time went by and Facebook started doing more shady things, I chose not to post as many things there. Over the past few years, I’ve posted about once a week or two (sometimes longer) just to let people know my plans to go back home or travel. My family is on there and we more or less stay in contact there so that’s the main reason why I haven’t deleted my account yet.

Up until the end of January, I was checking my wall for things every morning. Sometimes I’d go there during the day too, so I was spending, sorry wasting, a lot of my time checking up on everybody.

Sometime early in 2018, my doctor asked me if I had Facebook and I said that I did. She asked me if I used it a lot and I said I basically just read what’s happening with people back at home but checked it very often. She said it might be beneficial for me to delete it if I didn’t really need it because it could make me very homesick and a bit sad seeing what everybody else was doing because let’s face it, I get jealous over seeing people in relationships (since I have made a promise to my in-laws not to post any of my mushy things). Oh, and then there are the vacations people go on that make me a little jealous. She’s right though. I can see how not viewing all of that can be good for me.

I haven’t deleted my account or deactivated it but I have made a few changes to my social media habits:

  • I’ve removed Facebook and Facebook Messenger from my tablets. I did leave it on my phone, but have turned notifications off and I open it once a day. My family contacts me
  • I don’t post everything I do anymore. I ask myself whether it’s something that “everybody” needs to know. The worst I’d do is post something randomly.
  • I actually like the Screen Time on my iPhone and iPad. It makes me a bit more aware about how long I am staring at a small screen. (I actually have the screens as dark as possible because the screens are too bright. People that I show my phone to complain they can’t see it. I change the settings through the phone’s accessibility options.) My Android tablet has the same thing through the Microsoft Launcher. Have I mentioned how much I like the Microsoft Launcher? It’s pretty awesome.
  • Nothing is allowed to send me notifications. I check on things when I have time, not when my phone wants me to. It has the unfortunate side effect of making me miss things every so often, so I don’t see replies for months (sometimes years).

Since I’ve been limiting my access to these things and not oversharing, things have been a lot better. I think that it makes me feel a bit better too, mentally. I feel sometimes like I miss a few things and don’t know what’s going on in the USA, but hey, my sanity (or what is left of it) is more important.

TIP #23: Loss and Lost

In this one, I talk about the major loss(es) in my family and how powerless I feel being so far away when I feel like my family needs me. I also talk about how much I miss them and how I wish I could go back home for a while.

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Getting older and living overseas sucks (even more)

Getting older is no fun.

I’m really in no mood to be sitting here typing, but I have to keep myself mentally busy. I mentioned that my uncle had passed away, and about a day or two ago, my grandmother passed away. It is the same side of the family so I can’t imagine what they’re going through right now.

I’m still busy thinking about going back home to Texas but talked to my mom and she said that people understand why I don’t go back home for these things. She says not to go, but I’m still considering it. I’d love to go back home, but she said she’d rather have me there for Christmas, so I am also considering that. I don’t know what to do. (The prices to go back home and fly to Houston is pretty good.)

This grandmother was one of the people in the family that was one of my favourites. I loved this lady so very much. She was always very sweet and hardly ever got angry. I don’t think I had ever seen her angry. She was also great company and I loved spending time with her. I was looking forward to seeing her at the end of this year, but I guess that won’t be happening now, sadly. I also would have loved for her to come here too but don’t know if that would have been possible anyway due to her health lately. I probably should have asked her to come 15 years ago, but I guess there’s no sense in thinking what I could have done.

As always, I reflect on my time here in Australia and how this kind of thing drives me crazy because I really want to go back home and maybe someday, to live. I am getting more sad because I think about my mom and my sister a lot and how I’m missing out on their lives and such.

Well, okay. I’ve said what I needed to say. I’m just going to sit back and try to divert my mind from this little topic.

Take good care of yourselves and the people that you love, especially if you’re close to them.