TIP #3 and #4: Can’t Stop What’s Coming, Can’t Stop What’s On Its Way

idiologic podcast episode imageTIP #3 and #4: Can’t Stop What’s Coming, Can’t Stop What’s On Its Way

What’s been on my mind? You probably don’t want to know. It’s been a jumbled mess.

I talk about what’s making me anxious right now: travel, the possibility of moving (and having to get back in the closet), and the whole marriage thing.

This is a long episode because it’s 2 in 1 so that I can get my numbering together before it possibly drives me insane.

Note: This episode was recorded on 17 June 2018.

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Motel Hell

Right now my partner and I are out in regional/rural Victoria. It reminds me a lot of home, in the USA. Not much is happening. People are walking around and half of them are preaching the gospel. It’s one of those places where people probably get off on getting their tractors and lawn mowers running well. It’s incredibly horrifying. And to think, I may have to live nearby soon. I think I am probably going to die. (Podcast Info: You’ll hear more about this in this Friday’s podcast, [“Can’t Stop What’s Coming; Can’t Stop What’s On its Way”] so I don’t want to say too much.)

One of my crazy triggers is being in a hotel with free internet access but it is absolutely unusable. I totally  hate it. Actually, if I was brave enough, I’d write a whole review for this hotel. It’s quite awful but it was also $85 per night which is probably one of the cheapest rates anywhere in Victoria.

Now, for the bitching:

  1. Everything is run down. It looks like someone furnished this place with thrift shop rejected furniture. The vibe I had with this place is that it’s one of those hotels with hourly rates. (It isn’t.)
  2. The bathroom doesn’t have an exhaust. Not pleasant when someone does a number 2.
  3. The shower is horrible. It has two temperatures: ice cold or scalding hot. You’ll leave the shower either with ice cubes surrounding your toes, or with 3rd degree burns. The drain didn’t work and there were hairballs floating in it. Ewww, gross.
  4. The water pressure reminds me of what it was like in Manila. It seems like it takes a lot of effort for the water to travel through the pipes.
  5. The AC/heater is LOUD. I felt like I had to scream over it to be heard.
  6. I don’t think any of the housekeepers know how to properly wash dishes. It had free breakfast, but almost all the dishes were dirty.
  7. The internet is almost unusable. In fact, I’ve been relying more on my phone’s data the whole time. I totally get that the internet access is “free”, but it should at least be usable. It was so bad that I was considering buying a temporary pass to Telstra Air/Fon access point. I can’t even post any pictures because I know that they would all fail to upload.
  8. The bath towels were wet when we got in. I think somebody tried to dry them, but 30 minutes later decided that it was good enough.
  9. The paneling is popping away from the walls and you can see where they used screws to make the paneling stick back to the wall.
  10. They have a pool (which wasn’t open), yet they charge $5 per towel! Who the hell does this?!
It’s a bit frightening when the ghetto-looking lock doesn’t even lock. Read the part of the bottom why I really wished that I had a good lock…

 

We’re two pretty hairy guys, but we’re not this hairy. It floated up out of the drain while we were taking a shower.

The good? Um, okay, let me try to say some positive things about this place.

  1. They allow pets here (and that’s probably why it’s so run down). I saw a long-haired golden retriever who probably thought I wanted to play with him. He was right.
  2. The bed had electric blankets: one on each side. They were good and warm. When it’s -3º C (about 27º F I think), it’s very nice to have a warm heated blanket.
  3. It is close to KFC, Macca’s (McDonald’s), and Hungry Jacks (aka Burger King). You know how much I love me some junk food! It is also close to the city’s centre. So not so bad. (Partner didn’t let me go to KFC. I tried a few times. It’s probably because I can always go to the one that’s across the street from where we live.)
  4. The staff here were friendly (BUT I think they’re totally oblivious to the fact that everything is so run down).
  5. Breakfast was included. It wasn’t anything spectacular. Just continental breakfast: cereal, toast, orange juice, coffee, etc. But still, it was good to have as an option.
  6. The soap in the shower smelled like green apples. The shower could be total garbage, but have apple-scented stuff, and it makes it marginally better. First thing I did when I got home almost is to take a shower.
[Note: The part below was added the next day.]

And now, the fun part. We decided last night that we were going to go to sleep and wake up early so we can get home at a reasonable time, so fine. All good. At around midnight, I heard someone calling out for help. I mean, like really calling out like they were being chased by a werewolf. They were screaming out “Help!”. They did it a few times and I started to get out of bed to check if the guy was okay. Right after I took one step out of bed, I hear “It’s going to get me! It’s coming after me! It’s on me!”. I thought to myself, eh, probably not safe for me to get up. It lasted a few more minutes. I think the police finally got him. The way it sounded, it was probably someone off their gourd on drugs. It’s very sad.

My partner and I didn’t sleep well because of that. He said that someone screamed for him to shut up or something, but at the time, I didn’t think he was awake because I swear my guy can sleep through a tornado.

What’s funny is that I kept saying since we went there that the hotel choice was his decision, not mine, because I would never stay in a ghetto-ass place like that. Come to find out, I was the one who sent him the link and he booked it. I’ve gotten comparable pricing just out of Melbourne and for MUCH better before, so I was shocked that it was my fault that this place was my idea. Not a good decision on my part.

On the key, it said that the rooms were refurbished. When? 1985?

Anyway, this wasn’t supposed to be a review of the place. I also didn’t tell the owners of the problems I had either (and I think that it’s probably something you should do so they can try to improve in the future). I guess it’s one of those cases of “you get what you pay for” and if I had to stay there again, I probably would limit it to one night. A few days again? No way. (We are going to leave them a proper review.)

Hey, Thanks Buddy!

Wow.

The last few weeks have been a bit crazy and thankfully, it’s the weekend so I get a bit of a breather.

I just wanted to say a big thank you to those of you who have been sending me messages of support and love with the resurrected podcast. I didn’t really think there would be much interest in it. I know I’m not getting hundreds of people listening, and you know what? That’s okay. It’s the people who do actually listen that matter.

I haven’t had much time to give meaningful responses since I’ve been so incredibly busy (but I’ll get around to it). It gets so exhausting when I only have one hour to myself every day. Thankfully, I have a bit of a break now, so that means that I’ll start recording new podcast episodes that weren’t recorded a month ago.

The motivation is still there and I’m going to continue doing it as long as I can. A few huge changes are happening in my life soon and I just want to talk things out.

I will be back later next week. (Just need to do a little traveling, then I’ll be back.)

TIP #2: Pride

TIP #2: Pride

Happy [Gay] Pride Month!

In this super exciting episode, I wonder why I have to have a spoon in my coffee to drink it and talk about the difference of being gay and out here in Australia vs Texas. I also chat a bit about my feelings about getting married in about a month.

Note: This was recorded on 2 June 2018.

Feel free to comment or let me know what you want to hear!

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Busy Like a Bee

bee crashIt’s been a really busy few weeks. That’s why I’ve been a little silent lately. I haven’t had much time to myself lately. The next podcast episode is coming on Friday but I don’t really like it. I’m probably going to upload it anyway.

While I’m here, I just want to say a big ‘thank you’ to those of you who are sending me feedback and encouragement. I really do.

I’ll start recording new episodes next week. I have a lot of stuff in my head.

Sorry this is so short! Will chat with you lovely people later.

Episode #1: Podcast, Partner, and Places

Episode #1: Podcast, Partner, and Places

The 3 P’s of any first official podcast reboot!

I talk about why I’m doing this podcast (again). I also talk about my partner a bit and a little about my upcoming marriage and upcoming travel to India (and how I’m looking forward to eating fast food while I’m there).

Feel free to comment or let me know what you want to hear!

Note: Recorded 30 May 2018.

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V/Line, I F****** Hate You

vline-trainI told you guys before that my next few weeks were going to be really busy and, oh my god, I’m totally exhausted right now. I am seriously out of energy right now, and I’m in bed before 7:30. My last three mornings (including this one) have been early starts. I have had to leave the house before 5 am each time so I could make it to where I needed to go (aka work) and be there by 7 am. I would definitely make it there on time… so I thought.

V/Line operates the rail services to regional towns around the state of Victoria, to and from Melbourne usually. They are who I have to rely on almost every day to get where I need to go. Unfortunately, they don’t even do that right. I’ve been late twice already, even after leaving earlier the next day, on an earlier train.

So yes, three early starts, and then I get to leave at around 4 pm. As I’ve said, I’m simply exhausted. I want to get home, sit down, watch stupid videos, and just relax. I got to the station and the trains were all cancelled because of sick staff. I finally get a train, and THAT train was late. There were a ton of people there and instead of using 6 carriages like they usually do, they decide to use 3. They tried to fit all these people on it who have had their trains cancelled – so basically, the train looked like this:

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I had to stand the whole fucking time almost. I had been on my feet all day and my feet were hurting very bad, I had people’s armpits in my face, and I was really tired (I usually can get about a 45 minute nap out of these trips). About 3 stops before the stop that I was going to get off at, they announce that since that train was late, they’re making it terminate early. Even at that station there were still people standing up.

My favourite part of this is how after all this shit happening, they want to punish their customers for THEM being late. They took off all those people and said “Well, wait for the next train.” That train was running late too. I said “fuck this” and took a bus home and it was probably the first time today I have felt peaceful. I still want to say…

I fucking hate V/Line.

They fail to realise that people depend on them, even at 4-5 am, to get to work. They forget that people don’t want to be crammed in trains like fucking sardines at the end of the day. If you know there is going to be a staff shortage, then fucking hire some bus drivers or something. Don’t cancel half of your trains.

It’s one of the reasons why I hate living far away from Melbourne like this. If V/Line isn’t stressing me out, they’re pissing me off.

My pissed off ass is off to watch some super old quality television… on YouTube.

Terrible Re-Launch

I just wanted to apologise for the terrible relaunch of my podcast. Originally, I had planned to announce it on the first day of June and start posting new episodes starting in July. I was going to post the first episode on the first Friday of July, but realised that was the day before my wedding and I had a work-related deadline to meet that day. I couldn’t push it off to a week or two later because I would be preparing to leave or already gone.

I also wanted to have a chance to talk about a few upcoming travels in my life’s journey. I wouldn’t be able to do this if I waited until then. I also realised that I needed to have something in my podcast’s feed so I could post my show on iTunes, so I recorded that introductory podcast episode which needed to be done anyway. I wanted people to have access to that, so I got it all ready, uploaded it, and shared my feed with Apple.

THEN I thought to myself that posting that boring episode then waiting a few weeks probably wasn’t wise because, honestly, I don’t think it’s the best first impression. So I recorded another to post in two weeks after the first episode. Then I thought to myself, again, how busy I’m going to be and I probably should update every week for a while just in case I can’t post anything new while I am overseas.

I’ve recorded two more episodes and told Feeder (an RSS feed maker for the Mac) to delay the other two episodes until the time comes when they needed to be posted. Well, Feeder decided it was going to post both of them on the same day. So my iTunes feed had all my upcoming podcast episodes on it for a few hours. I was a little upset because if anybody has subscribed, they’ve probably got them downloaded and won’t have anything to listen to for a few weeks. I can’t do much about that. The good thing is that you could sit and listen to all three episodes in less than 45 minutes.

I had to quickly cobble together some images for my podcast as well and they’ve turned out a bit more grey than I wanted them to be, so I am going to try to fix them up.

I also thought about putting a podcast episode player on my website but ended up just using Stitcher to do it. They tend to insert ads in podcast episodes, which is fine because they need to make money and they’re providing a pretty useful service for me right now. I don’t mind.

I’m really hoping to do a better job in this round of my podcast. I don’t really have high hopes though because my readership has been circling the drain for a year or so. Despite this, I’m going to try my best to make at least interesting conversation.

If you want to, tell people about my podcast. Listen to it first and if you think it needs work, please tell me. Or leave me feedback on the iTunes Music Store or Stitcher. I want to make this good but felt like I might have rushed it out a bit early so some things aren’t really working out very well for me. I’m trying though! 🙂

All That I Can Say: Loving You is Wonderful

you are the cheese to my macaroni
I didn’t make this. Gina Mayes did.

It looks like about three years ago, Jay and I decided that we’re going to be a couple. Honestly, I didn’t think that I would ever be in another long-term relationship ever again back then. It wasn’t because I didn’t want to, but because I believed that I would never have the opportunity to do so again. I guess you could connect that to my really awful self-esteem. I still don’t really understand what good things people see in me, but this guy does. He assures me that and I probably feel better about that now. It’s really good. It’s a nice feeling to know that there’s a person who has my back through my good and bad. I know, for a fact, right now, that things are far from perfect with me right now, but he’s inspiring me to do better and is incredibly supportive of the things I want to do (full-time at least, not casual).

It’s been a good few years. I do complain about him sometimes and he does get on my nerves a little bit, but he knows that if he mentions farts or something childish, he can coerce a smile out of me. He knows that I don’t like pink food. He knows that I don’t eat seafood though he comes from a place where they eat a ton of it. He knows how nervous I am around a lot of people. He knows that I’m probably not as social as I really should be. He knows that the only kind of foods I can really cook have about 6-10 ingredients before it goes bad. He knows (and exploits) that I really have a not-so-healthy relationship with KFC. He knows all these things and he still loves me as much as he possibly can. I love him too.

Yeah, I know this is really sweet and everything, but it’s been a good few years for me. I’ve had more schooling on South Indian culture in the past three years than I ever thought I would in my life. It’s been different and difficult at times, but it’s totally worth it. And in a little more than a month, we’re tying the knot. I made him wait long enough and secretly, I’m looking forward to it.

So here’s to another year (and many more years) of being with this really incredible person (who needs to get his hair cut or at least trimmed)!

OK, the title of this totally came from this… kinda.

Episode #0: Introduction

Episode #0: Introduction

You might know me. You might not. In any case, if you do want to know me, listen to this podcast episode about who I am. I don’t really explain why I am doing it again, but I guess that’ll come in the next episode.

The numbering is a little weird, I know but I needed it to differentiate between older episodes and new episodes.

Listen or download here:

If you don’t know what’s going on, read this post.