Not as Perfect as Planned

Hello, March! I thought that I had posted a few weblog entries, but I was sadly mistaken. I guess maybe those can be posted later? Possibly?

Today was meant to be my first day back at the university. Unfortunately, my calendars I guess weren’t in sync and one calendar said I start tomorrow, one said I don’t start until next week and finally, one said that I start today about 30 minutes before my lecture meant to start. Instead of bust my ass to get to the university, I took a day off. Not a great start, right? No!

I had also planned to get back to the gym this morning as well but I just couldn’t wake up. Not only that, I was thinking about getting my transportation ticket (good ol’ myki) for a week of travel. Then I realised that I am only going to be here for a few days then I’m off to a new part of Australia with a good friend of mine. So, instead of wasting the money, I decided to put that off. That also tempted me to stay home today as well. I’m probably going to start back at the gym next week.

Basically, it’s a shitty start to my new semester but it’s just one day. I am also going to be looking for new work as well. I’ll see how it goes.

My Mandarin is Horrible


I know that I’m probably not going to have many problems going to Taiwan and speaking English, but it’s so weird for me to go to a place and not know how to say or understand some of the most simple phrases. Several years, while I had one of the most boring (but well-paid) jobs, I thought I could learn a new language–Mandarin Chinese. I was pretty quick at learning the basics but because I didn’t use it much (my partner at the time wasn’t great at speaking Mandarin either, he spoke Cantonese), I forgot a lot of what I learned.

So in an attempt to get some of that knowledge back, I started speaking to Google Translate in Mandarin and I am guessing my tones are terrible because I kept saying some really strange things like: love package, I love you (unintentional), You are bored, police report, as well as a lot of things I guess it didn’t really know how to translate.

What I could do is basically tell people not to touch me, to leave me alone, ask “What?”, say thank you, stupid, say “Help me”, and a few other phrases.

Basically I could go to a Mandarin-speaking country and tell them to fuck off or get help, then not know what to expect after that. I have a few more months to practice, regardless.

I was chatting with my friend from China yesterday and he said that my tones really aren’t that bad, they’re just not perfect which gives me a little bit of hope. Haha.

This is one of those posts that I wrote but never bothered posting. This one is only a few days old. I even added a little to it!

My Official Starting Point to 2015

Time for a new post, eh? As I type this, I keep receiving messages on my phone and in my browser, so I’m going to try to make this as coherent as possible. We will see. (PS: If you read my weblog entries and find them quite absent-minded, that is why. 90% of the time, that’s the reason why some of these don’t make sense–that and I don’t go back and read these things. I rely on the spell check and grammar check way too much.)

This is my last week of freedom so I am taking it easy now before I’m back at my very last full-time semester at the university. After this, I am part-time only until I am done. I am almost done! Isn’t that exciting?! It is for me! Unfortunately, my timetable came out today and it looks like I’ll have to be there from Monday to Thursday instead of Monday to Wednesday like I asked for. I’m up for more programming (the only unit I have an exam for) and two multimedia/art units. This should be interesting because I’ve always been interested in video production but have never really attempted it professionally or academically. I would have loved to and this introductory course should be just fine for that.

Anyway, it’s an exciting time for me but I need to stay focused.

I’m still planning my Taiwan trip too. I am really looking forward to that.

Edited: I changed my timetable. Someone moved their Wednesday class to Thursday, so I moved my Thursday to Wednesday. Yay!

Is Escaping from the News Possible?

Without fail, every time I start writing one of these things, people want to start chatting so I thought I’d use my iPhone to write this one late at night. So far so good. There are about five weblog posts that weren’t posted this week due to the fact that I could never finish them. A lot of them were opinions on all the stuff going on in the news and how irritating it is. As I was eating way too many cheese chicken nuggets yesterday, I was wondering what life would be like if I didn’t read any news for a while. No politics. Nothing from The New Civil Rights Movement. Pretty much no Facebook stuff at all. I have to admit I’m a little tired of reading about a friend of mine bitch about the champagne he’s served on first class flights across the world when I am struggling to fly to Taiwan in economy.

I took an art class at the university where my lecturer (a handsome graphic designer may I add) said that he doesn’t bother with the news anymore. He doesn’t read it or watch it. He said he’s happier from it but I ask myself what my world would be like if I plugged my ears and refused to listen to what’s going on in the world. I’d be oblivious to the world around me and I would probably be a lot more conversationally dead than I already am. I’m not sure if that’s good. I’m also pretty interested about what’s going on in the equal marriage fight in Texas. There must be some kind of healthy balance.

Maybe I should just stop being so jealous that people do nice things and I can’t do them without some kind of kind soul helping me. Maybe I need to be happy with what I have and stop putting so much emphasis on the things I don’t have instead of what I do have. Luckily I have some great people around me so I don’t get too disgruntled.

I don’t know. I’d like to ignore Facebook for a while but unfortunately my family has been using that to keep me up to date. It also spawns some bitchiness as well out of me.

That’s all from me tonight. I’m planning to have a busy weekend, I hope. I’m ready for winter too. Bring it on Mother Nature. Bring it on.

Ah yes and some decent quality sleep with no nightmares will be great.

Happy VD I Guess

Happy VD!


Valentine’s Day. So overrated. I’m not really jealous or anything because I tend to forget that Valentine’s Day even happens whether I’m in a relationship or not. Maybe I’m just a horrible partner, I don’t know. Well, I’d be a horrible partner if I had one.

I have a feeling that I’m going to ramble through this, just to warn you…

So, today is a day about love. It’s actually quite hard, if not impossible, to get that word to pass my lips. I’m not really sure why. I’ve always seen that word as something that’s reserved for someone you are really into, you know, a person that you would spend the rest of your life with if you could or had to. Growing up, I hardly heard “I love you” from my relatives and immediate family. We all just thought that was something that was inferred but not spoken. It’s not something from my vocabulary that I say much.

I remember how difficult it was to say this to the person I was with longest. I made it a habit to tell him this every night before I slept. I kept doing it, while he was physically here, even after I knew that we were pretty much doomed as a couple. After this relationship, it became even harder for me to say it which may be why relationships after that failed. Maybe it was just my lack of attention, I don’t know.

I do know that a main reason why I am going to Taiwan is because I messed up on this. I know that this isn’t going to be a magical fix though.

Wanderlustful: Travel Plans


If you’ve taken a look at the main page, you might have seen that I have some travel lined up in the upcoming year. Exciting, right?

If you can’t tell where I’m going from the picture or flag, I am heading off to Taiwan (and possibly some other countries) this year, then back home at the end of the year. :)

Hello February

Ah, it’s the month of love and luckily for me, it’s the shortest month of the year! 2015 is already 1/12 finished and I don’t feel like I’ve been productive enough and it’s really gotten me down. After this month is done, I am back in class for my last full-time semester. I am really excited to be close to finishing. It’s taken me a lot longer than I expected to finish up these degrees but I guess that’s fine, right? As long as it gets done? Yeah?

Beginning last month (and arguably a long time before that), I have made some really big goals to reach over the next year or two. One in particular scares me a little bit, but I’ll see how that plays out because I don’t think any of these will happen exactly how I want them to be but it gives me something to strive towards to hopefully make me a more productive and happier person.

We will see, right? You’ll probably read more about what I’m going for in the next few months and hopefully it works out.

Supreme: Marriage for All (I Hope)

Old Entry Alert: I wrote this about a week ago and forgot to finish it. I wanted to say something about it, but don’t feel like rewriting everything!

Same-Sex Marriage is headed to the Supreme Court (USA)! How exciting that this is probably going to be resolved once in a for all. I know that the cases in Louisiana, Mississippi, and Texas are in appeals court at the moment and I hope that they’ll come out with a positive outcome. It would be nice just to be able to go to any state and have it the “law of the land”. I’m pretty surprised that the USA has progressed so much over the past few years. I went from me having to LEAVE the country I was born in just to be with the person I loved because Australia has the option for same-sex couples to stay together here. Now, I could just go back to the USA and get married in not only a handful, but 36 states (and Washington, DC)! AND I could have my partner stay with me there for good based on the marriage. Australia is still lagging behind much of the developed countries which is a little sad. With a guy who is still stuck in the 1950s running this country, we’ll have to boot him out before we see any real progress. Most Australians are getting pretty impatient now. But, this whole thing was about the USA, so I’m not going to go into a huge tirade about Australia. It’s just very exciting and maybe one day when I move back for good, I can live in a country where I can be with the person I love and have it fully legalised.

I am really hoping for the best outcome and really hope, if it comes to it, and I think it will, our Republican overlords won’t trash it the first chance they get. (They can’t really, can they? Once it hits the Supreme Court that’s it right?)

Oh, and Mike Huckabee and Cecil Bell, Jr? Fuck the both of you.


Yesterday I posted something yesterday about a wedding planner’s refusal to plan a wedding of two women. Today, I woke up and read a story about a Denver bakery who refused to make an anti-gay-themed cake. Then I started thinking, why would I cheer this woman on for doing the “right” thing and just let the wedding planner get by? It’s not and a few people (some offline) have told me that my thinking is out of line. I can see this now. Cosette wrote a comment to me that really made me think but here’s the part that got to me:

“What makes one form of discrimination more acceptable than another? … We don’t let discrimination slide just because it’s someone’s belief.”

Yes, and that’s absolutely true. Discrimination in any form is an awful, terrible thing. I wouldn’t want to, or expect anyone else to, be put in the position of dealing with it. I have friends of different cultures, gay, transgender, straight, and it always pains me to hear stories of them being the object of someone’s discrimination.

I do feel a bit embarrassed but I won’t delete what I wrote because I can’t keep pretending that I didn’t write these things when I did. I am human and okay, I don’t really think about things before I type. (I also don’t proofread or edit very much either – so my grammar can be quite messy too.)

I think it all boils down to “Treat others how you want to be treated” and I know that I wouldn’t want to be treated badly just because what I look like, who I love, where I am from, or what I [don’t] believe in.

(Un)Comfortable With The Gays

This morning I read something about a lesbian couple shopping around for a wedding planner and this wedding planner said “…Due to my  strong personal belief I do not feel comfortable planning a wedding for lesbian couples.”

I realise that I’m probably going to get sneered at for saying something like this but feel like I really need to because a majority of the people in the Facebook comments were absolutely appalled that this kind of thing could ever happen, especially in 2015.

To me, this is something similar to asking a mechanic to make me a birthday cake for 100 people. Maybe this mechanic does have some mad baking skills but then, what if he or she didn’t? Is it okay for that mechanic to say “You know what? I haven’t baked many cakes for 100 people before. I can barely make one for 4 people”? Yes, it is okay for them to say that.

I could then throw a huge fit about it and say well, I demand you bake this cake for me right now and I’ll pay you handsomely for it. Sure, this mechanic could bake me a cake but would he or she be putting their heart into it? No. That’s because it’s not something they’re comfortable with. Maybe I’d get a really crappy cake.

Okay, so that is a bit extreme, but maybe a little unrelated. Let’s substitute the word “mechanic” for something like “Japanese sushi chef”. Sure, the chef could possibly make a cake–but are they any good at it? Maybe. Maybe not. I wouldn’t know unless I was told.

Basically, I wouldn’t want someone planning my wedding if they weren’t comfortable doing it for any reason. Sure, I’d be disappointed, hurt, and maybe a little angry at first, but then I’d move on and find someone who is happy to plan it and be paid.

Regardless how far gay rights have come over the years, there are always going to be people who don’t agree about a ton of stuff on the matter. That’s life. I also wouldn’t want them to be forced to do something that they don’t want to (though, in my opinion, the experience may be enlightening but we’re talking about religion, most likely). Not everybody will be okay with two people of the same sex and that’s okay. That’s life.

What I do have a problem with, may I add, is when stores, restaurants, or any public, everyday service refuse to provide a service based on the look of someone whether it’s two people of the same sex holding hands or someone who may be from a different culture. This shouldn’t happen. I would never want to be told that I can’t have a burger because I’m standing next to a caring, loving, handsome man.

Discrimination is a terrible thing. I know this may be one form of discrimination against the LGBT community when it comes to weddings and people’s religion. It’s not the right thing to do, but I would much rather have a planner that is HAPPY to plan my wedding than one who is forced to do it because they have to or feel like they have to.

Shit people will exist and some of them can’t be swayed to even acknowledge that two people who love each other and being the same sex, can be married. Believe me, I have been there and found it to be way too energy-intensive and wasteful of my effort.

Another thing I noticed in the news is that Kevin Hart says he won’t play a gay man in a movie. People are getting upset over this as well. I don’t see any harm in him acknowledging that he doesn’t want to play a gay man because he’s not comfortable doing it. It’s understandable. Again, it goes back to the point with the mechanic and cake. Shouldn’t he be comfortable in the roles that he plays in movies? Sure. He has that choice whether he wants to do that. It doesn’t make him bad or evil. It just makes him honest. As far as being afraid of what people will think, that’s totally understandable. As a gay man myself, it would be gut wrenching to see someone play a role of a gay man badly. :) Really!

If I missed something or said something extremely nasty, you’re always free to school me using the comments or by sending me a message. I am forever learning and may miss an important point of view.