McDonald’s Makes Me Sad

Mcdonalds eat your own shit

It’s becoming pretty rare that I come on here and post anything of meaning. Why should today be any different?

Today was a bit weird because I woke up and started doing an assignment that was due yesterday. It was supposed to be pretty easy but since I started the day that it was due, I found myself screaming and cussing at everything. I also had to be at a lecture and class today. So, most of the day I was fueled on and high on coffee.

I actually felt really dizzy after a while and I was shaking a little more than usual while I was in my lab. I had to leave so that I could get something in my belly. Then I realised that I still needed to submit that assignment! So my options were limited. My initial idea was to buy a few things and whip together something edible. I quickly realised that if I did this, I would lose very valuable time that I could be working on my assignment.

So, like any good American import, I went to McDonald’s because it’s terribly close to my house. That’s probably the only reason I went (and why I go). When I eat there, I’m usually not very happy eating their food and it’s not because I know how unhealthy they can be but because it’s just sad food. I hardly ate the stuff in the USA but once I got here, I eat it once a month or so. (The Grand Angus tastes very similar to the burgers I make at home.)

As I sat there, eating those extremely salty fries, I was like – why did I do this again? Oh, because I’m starving. I need to plan for this stuff better. I need to learn to make some meals in advance for situations like this because the whole “going out to eat all the time” thing has never suited me very well. I’d much rather cook myself but since I’ve been single, I hardly do that because cooking for one person sucks. I also don’t enjoy eating the same thing for 5 days in a row (unless it’s something REALLY good like chicken and sausage gumbo).

Eating there made me question myself: is this going to be my life ten years from now? I feel like I struggle so much and hate it. I think McDonald’s food reminds me of how lonely I am and how much I struggle. I think that’s it.

At the end of the day though, I’d rather eat at McDonald’s than be dead, so they have that going for them.

I Was Down in Tasmania

So much for updating this thing regularly, right? Unfortunately, for the past few weeks I’ve either been pretty busy or sick. I have spent the last two weeks feeling terrible with a cold. I’m still hacking my guts up in the morning.

I’m posting this about 2 weeks after my trip, so a little of it has left my brain!

My friend and I went to Hobart, Tasmania for our first time in early March. I was feeling pretty good when we went but started getting sick halfway through our trip. I’m not sure whether it was the 0ºC/32ºF temperature I was in for a while or not, but I am pretty sure it’s something I picked up from my housemate before I left. I think that I blamed my friend for this because he was sick too, but have a feeling that it was probably my housemate.

So anyway, on our first full day we headed up to Mount Wellington/kunanyi which was really foggy and the views are supposed to be really nice when it was clear but for some reason, I still loved being up there in all the cloudiness. It was also wet, windy, and freezing up there. There was an option to hike down the mountain after the tour bus went up there, but I don’t think I would have made it. You see, when you travel and there is a baggage limit, you have to be pretty choosy what you bring. I didn’t have the right foot gear for it plus it was a long way.

Mount Wellington

Up on Mount Wellington

Is this a huge waterfall or a small one? Can you tell?

Is this a huge waterfall or a small one? Can you tell?

I took a few videos. I was one of the few people who braved the awful weather. Unfortunately, those videos are a little shaky so I will leave them off (actually, I think I should post them to my YouTube account. If I remember, I’ll post it here.)

The next day (I think it was the next day), we went to Port Arthur, an old penal colony dating from the 1800s. I had been looking forward to going there for a very, very long time so it was exciting to go. It was kind of creepy being there because of the fact it’s a very old (but ruined) prison. Also, the massacre that happened there in 1996 only added to my uneasiness. Then, if all of that wasn’t enough, there was an island with a lot of tombstones and unmarked graves close by.

They run ghost tours and stuff like that, but decided not to do that. I didn’t even get off at the island. I was feeling pretty crappy that day so it was good that I took it a bit easy but…

It was a lot bigger than I thought. I didn’t realise that the place took up so much land area and that it was really hilly. It was exhausting for the both of us. The tickets we got were for two days but we didn’t really plan to go for two days.

Port Arthur

Port Arthur – Old Prison

Prison?!

Prison Rooms

There was an orby photo that was taken of me, but I can’t locate it on here so… I’ll leave it off for now.

The last day we were there, we headed to MONA, an art museum with some of the strangest pieces of art I have ever seen. I can’t possibly post everything here, but I’ll post some of the more interesting pieces I saw. While I was there, I was thinking how funny it would be to have my latest ex there.

Cloaca: Click on pic for video.

Cloaca: Click on pic for video.

What is this thing, you may ask? Why, it’s more or less, a shit machine. No, I’m not making that up. It really shits. And it smells like shit. The air in that room tastes like shit. I couldn’t handle being in there and definitely didn’t have much of an appetite after it. I think that if a piece of art has people talking, then it probably did its job well. This has me talking and it’s been one of those things that, every so often, even now, has me thinking: Wow, that was really shitty but in a very interesting way. (The video of it, I didn’t make. I wasn’t there at the “right” time thankfully.)

Ferry Ride

Tasmania is Beautiful

We took the ferry back and forth and the views of this place are spectacular. I loved all the scenery but as beautiful as it is, I wouldn’t live there unless I was married, had 2 dachshunds, and was retired or rich. It is a little too quiet for me but I think I would end up having legs of steel!

The little trip was lovely and I’m glad that I had the opportunity to go. It was probably one of the best trips somewhere I have had for a very long time.

Not as Perfect as Planned

Hello, March! I thought that I had posted a few weblog entries, but I was sadly mistaken. I guess maybe those can be posted later? Possibly?

Today was meant to be my first day back at the university. Unfortunately, my calendars I guess weren’t in sync and one calendar said I start tomorrow, one said I don’t start until next week and finally, one said that I start today about 30 minutes before my lecture meant to start. Instead of bust my ass to get to the university, I took a day off. Not a great start, right? No!

I had also planned to get back to the gym this morning as well but I just couldn’t wake up. Not only that, I was thinking about getting my transportation ticket (good ol’ myki) for a week of travel. Then I realised that I am only going to be here for a few days then I’m off to a new part of Australia with a good friend of mine. So, instead of wasting the money, I decided to put that off. That also tempted me to stay home today as well. I’m probably going to start back at the gym next week.

Basically, it’s a shitty start to my new semester but it’s just one day. I am also going to be looking for new work as well. I’ll see how it goes.

My Mandarin is Horrible

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I know that I’m probably not going to have many problems going to Taiwan and speaking English, but it’s so weird for me to go to a place and not know how to say or understand some of the most simple phrases. Several years, while I had one of the most boring (but well-paid) jobs, I thought I could learn a new language–Mandarin Chinese. I was pretty quick at learning the basics but because I didn’t use it much (my partner at the time wasn’t great at speaking Mandarin either, he spoke Cantonese), I forgot a lot of what I learned.

So in an attempt to get some of that knowledge back, I started speaking to Google Translate in Mandarin and I am guessing my tones are terrible because I kept saying some really strange things like: love package, I love you (unintentional), You are bored, police report, as well as a lot of things I guess it didn’t really know how to translate.

What I could do is basically tell people not to touch me, to leave me alone, ask “What?”, say thank you, stupid, say “Help me”, and a few other phrases.

Basically I could go to a Mandarin-speaking country and tell them to fuck off or get help, then not know what to expect after that. I have a few more months to practice, regardless.

I was chatting with my friend from China yesterday and he said that my tones really aren’t that bad, they’re just not perfect which gives me a little bit of hope. Haha.

This is one of those posts that I wrote but never bothered posting. This one is only a few days old. I even added a little to it!

My Official Starting Point to 2015

Time for a new post, eh? As I type this, I keep receiving messages on my phone and in my browser, so I’m going to try to make this as coherent as possible. We will see. (PS: If you read my weblog entries and find them quite absent-minded, that is why. 90% of the time, that’s the reason why some of these don’t make sense–that and I don’t go back and read these things. I rely on the spell check and grammar check way too much.)

This is my last week of freedom so I am taking it easy now before I’m back at my very last full-time semester at the university. After this, I am part-time only until I am done. I am almost done! Isn’t that exciting?! It is for me! Unfortunately, my timetable came out today and it looks like I’ll have to be there from Monday to Thursday instead of Monday to Wednesday like I asked for. I’m up for more programming (the only unit I have an exam for) and two multimedia/art units. This should be interesting because I’ve always been interested in video production but have never really attempted it professionally or academically. I would have loved to and this introductory course should be just fine for that.

Anyway, it’s an exciting time for me but I need to stay focused.

I’m still planning my Taiwan trip too. I am really looking forward to that.

Edited: I changed my timetable. Someone moved their Wednesday class to Thursday, so I moved my Thursday to Wednesday. Yay!

Is Escaping from the News Possible?

Without fail, every time I start writing one of these things, people want to start chatting so I thought I’d use my iPhone to write this one late at night. So far so good. There are about five weblog posts that weren’t posted this week due to the fact that I could never finish them. A lot of them were opinions on all the stuff going on in the news and how irritating it is. As I was eating way too many cheese chicken nuggets yesterday, I was wondering what life would be like if I didn’t read any news for a while. No politics. Nothing from The New Civil Rights Movement. Pretty much no Facebook stuff at all. I have to admit I’m a little tired of reading about a friend of mine bitch about the champagne he’s served on first class flights across the world when I am struggling to fly to Taiwan in economy.

I took an art class at the university where my lecturer (a handsome graphic designer may I add) said that he doesn’t bother with the news anymore. He doesn’t read it or watch it. He said he’s happier from it but I ask myself what my world would be like if I plugged my ears and refused to listen to what’s going on in the world. I’d be oblivious to the world around me and I would probably be a lot more conversationally dead than I already am. I’m not sure if that’s good. I’m also pretty interested about what’s going on in the equal marriage fight in Texas. There must be some kind of healthy balance.

Maybe I should just stop being so jealous that people do nice things and I can’t do them without some kind of kind soul helping me. Maybe I need to be happy with what I have and stop putting so much emphasis on the things I don’t have instead of what I do have. Luckily I have some great people around me so I don’t get too disgruntled.

I don’t know. I’d like to ignore Facebook for a while but unfortunately my family has been using that to keep me up to date. It also spawns some bitchiness as well out of me.

That’s all from me tonight. I’m planning to have a busy weekend, I hope. I’m ready for winter too. Bring it on Mother Nature. Bring it on.

Ah yes and some decent quality sleep with no nightmares will be great.

Happy VD I Guess

Happy VD!

VD?

Valentine’s Day. So overrated. I’m not really jealous or anything because I tend to forget that Valentine’s Day even happens whether I’m in a relationship or not. Maybe I’m just a horrible partner, I don’t know. Well, I’d be a horrible partner if I had one.

I have a feeling that I’m going to ramble through this, just to warn you…

So, today is a day about love. It’s actually quite hard, if not impossible, to get that word to pass my lips. I’m not really sure why. I’ve always seen that word as something that’s reserved for someone you are really into, you know, a person that you would spend the rest of your life with if you could or had to. Growing up, I hardly heard “I love you” from my relatives and immediate family. We all just thought that was something that was inferred but not spoken. It’s not something from my vocabulary that I say much.

I remember how difficult it was to say this to the person I was with longest. I made it a habit to tell him this every night before I slept. I kept doing it, while he was physically here, even after I knew that we were pretty much doomed as a couple. After this relationship, it became even harder for me to say it which may be why relationships after that failed. Maybe it was just my lack of attention, I don’t know.

I do know that a main reason why I am going to Taiwan is because I messed up on this. I know that this isn’t going to be a magical fix though.

Wanderlustful: Travel Plans

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If you’ve taken a look at the main page, you might have seen that I have some travel lined up in the upcoming year. Exciting, right?

If you can’t tell where I’m going from the picture or flag, I am heading off to Taiwan (and possibly some other countries) this year, then back home at the end of the year. :)

Edit: I decided to move my Taiwan trip until the end of the year (if possible) so I can go when it’s not hot and humid. 

Hello February

Ah, it’s the month of love and luckily for me, it’s the shortest month of the year! 2015 is already 1/12 finished and I don’t feel like I’ve been productive enough and it’s really gotten me down. After this month is done, I am back in class for my last full-time semester. I am really excited to be close to finishing. It’s taken me a lot longer than I expected to finish up these degrees but I guess that’s fine, right? As long as it gets done? Yeah?

Beginning last month (and arguably a long time before that), I have made some really big goals to reach over the next year or two. One in particular scares me a little bit, but I’ll see how that plays out because I don’t think any of these will happen exactly how I want them to be but it gives me something to strive towards to hopefully make me a more productive and happier person.

We will see, right? You’ll probably read more about what I’m going for in the next few months and hopefully it works out.

Supreme: Marriage for All (I Hope)

Old Entry Alert: I wrote this about a week ago and forgot to finish it. I wanted to say something about it, but don’t feel like rewriting everything!

Same-Sex Marriage is headed to the Supreme Court (USA)! How exciting that this is probably going to be resolved once in a for all. I know that the cases in Louisiana, Mississippi, and Texas are in appeals court at the moment and I hope that they’ll come out with a positive outcome. It would be nice just to be able to go to any state and have it the “law of the land”. I’m pretty surprised that the USA has progressed so much over the past few years. I went from me having to LEAVE the country I was born in just to be with the person I loved because Australia has the option for same-sex couples to stay together here. Now, I could just go back to the USA and get married in not only a handful, but 36 states (and Washington, DC)! AND I could have my partner stay with me there for good based on the marriage. Australia is still lagging behind much of the developed countries which is a little sad. With a guy who is still stuck in the 1950s running this country, we’ll have to boot him out before we see any real progress. Most Australians are getting pretty impatient now. But, this whole thing was about the USA, so I’m not going to go into a huge tirade about Australia. It’s just very exciting and maybe one day when I move back for good, I can live in a country where I can be with the person I love and have it fully legalised.

I am really hoping for the best outcome and really hope, if it comes to it, and I think it will, our Republican overlords won’t trash it the first chance they get. (They can’t really, can they? Once it hits the Supreme Court that’s it right?)

Oh, and Mike Huckabee and Cecil Bell, Jr? Fuck the both of you.