A Break in Silence

Good morning to all of you.

I have been a bit quiet on all fronts lately. I haven’t posted anything here. I haven’t recorded any new podcast episodes for a while. I haven’t done much of anything on my side projects for a while. I’ve been mentally preoccupied with work-related stuff and honestly, it’s not good.

There are times where I just think I should just stop doing things because I’m no good at it. My writing is horrible now. My podcast quality, to me, has never really been of great quality and it isn’t that interesting. The Complicated Noise website has been giving me headaches lately and I’m tired of working on it. That’s a bad thing because I’m supposed to move this journal over at some point. I thought about getting started, but it’s just not going well. I am having a really hard time getting started. I think I just don’t care. That’s not good.

I thought about streaming retro game play this month but didn’t do that. Again, no interest. I’m playing some games, but not live streaming it because it’s just hard to care enough.

There’s a lot that I’m neglecting and I think that all this self-isolation has a lot to do with it. Even my medications aren’t helping me cope as well anymore. I’m back to being really sick of my job and wanting a change. My studying is going nowhere because I’m finding that online study isn’t something that I’m finding doable. There’s just a ton of stuff happening and I’m struggling to cope with it all.

I’m sure I’ll get to a place where I can cope though. I’m not at the hopeless point. I doubt I’ll ever get to that point. I just need to rethink things. I would say that I need more socialisation but… it doesn’t change the fact that I can only handle small doses of chat and I don’t like talking on the phone.

Anyway, my whining session is almost over. I’m not quitting any of these things, but just taking it slow while I get my brain back into working order.

Everybody take care of yourselves! I’ll do my best to do the same.