New Job!

Hello everybody!

A bit of news from me that you probably won’t get until sometime in November is that I have a new job. I just have to get some administrative stuff done, and then I start. 

I don’t remember if I’ve actually mentioned this in any podcast episodes or not and if I did, you probably wouldn’t hear about it until mid-November.

I don’t really expect there to be many changes to the way I do things here because I live about 10 minutes by walking away from work. If I drive, well, it’s about two minutes away. I might just get lazier with posting or, record a little sooner before I post (which would be a good thing).

I’m looking forward to getting back into what I used to do. Exciting stuff, but first, just need to get some checks done and a medical exam.

See you guys soon!

TIP #14: The Past: Depression and Sadness

I know talking about sad things isn’t really something everybody wants to hear. It’s not all sad though. I talk about my need to make everybody happy and what that feeling probably stems from. I came across all my idioPod episodes from 2007 and 2010 (when I was probably feeling the worst) and why my relationship to who I was with wasn’t that great, but it did have some great moments.

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New TIP Guide

A view of the new guide

I’ve been a little eager trying to get the new guide ready, and I’ll admit: It’s here, but it’s not perfect. I’m going to work on the bugs in my spare time.

You can reach the preferences under the search bar on each page. You can choose which view (grid, list, and compact view), how many episodes appear on the guide, and whether the audio autoplays when you request the player. On the player, there is an extra preference whether to use the TIP-themed player or use the browser’s built-in audio player.

Note: There are a few problems, but I’ll be working out the bugs over the next month or so. Things should work just fine right now though.

Take a look at the new guide right now.

Rediscovering idioPod

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I was looking around on my server today to see whether I could clean some things up off of it and lo and behold, I came across every podcast episode and video I made for the podcast I made between January 2007 and the end of December 2010.

In that time frame, so much happened. I had just moved back to Australia to try to fix a relationship that wasn’t really working out. I was quite unhappy in general and very depressed a lot of the time. I went to the USA to possibly move back and my dad passed away. Then, I returned to Australia still hoping that I could save my relationship. All of a sudden, I just stopped updating my podcast and called it quits.

I downloaded the short videos I made and watched them. The quality is awful. I don’t know what I used to record them, but it was probably acceptable back then. They had videos of my dachshund I owned here, my ex, my places I moved into (which were VERY unpresentable). It was sad because as I watched them, I found it very sad because my ex looked very disinterested. I think by that time, he was just not all the way there himself but noticed that I made him laugh a lot.

I have to give him credit because if it weren’t for him, I wouldn’t be here in this country today. I still find it really hard to talk to him though. I think he cares about me even today, but that’s where it ends. That’s fine. I go through time periods where I do miss the good times with him. He wasn’t as awful as I made people believe. Things change over time and it’s why I was so scared getting married when I did. (My ex knows I got married as well.)

Confronting your own past can be so scary. I felt like I should confront some of it today. I don’t think I can listen to myself talk for 3 years worth of podcast episodes though so the videos are all I did. Luckily, they were short (and very pixelated). It reminded me of the good times I’ve had (except for my messy house… ex had a bit of a hoarding issue… it wasn’t bad, but he was very unorganised and liked to collect things he couldn’t use).

Maybe I’ll share some of these episodes later–or all of them. I still have the feed for it. And they’re still on my server (except they are not reachable by the public). Maybe people could point out the changes from then to now. I feel better now. Not the best, but I feel better. I  kinda miss the way things were, but it’s better to move on from that.

Returning to Sanity

disconnectIt happened again. My internet was out for about a week. Weekends without unlimited* access to YouTube can really drive people crazy. It’s especially bad when the data I get from my mobile phone plan is really small.

I had been working with three different titles for my last podcast episode and didn’t know which one I was going to pick. I went with what it is on this weblog.

When I talked about addiction (in this case, to the internet back in my teenage years), it made me think what exactly addiction does to us as a person. Over my lifetime, I’ve seen people get hooked on some really awful things and for the most part, I’ve avoided it. I never really experimented with drugs of addiction. I’ve never been a big drinker (and when I do it, I end up really regretting it the day after when I realise how foolish I had become). My biggest addiction was the internet and looking back at some of my previous relationships, it is probably one of the contributing factors of my deteriorating relationships. Even to this day, I derive a lot of enjoyment from being in front of the computer, mostly coding, getting ideas, and stuff and then later, thinking that I’m not destined to pull off great things.

That’s just being hard on myself though. I’ve been working on a few things and quite proud what I accomplished with minimal access to resources. I need to get the finishing touches on the guide and show you what I’ve done.

Husband’s telling me to spend some time with him, so I’m going to go do that.

Some more stories of my past are coming. Hopefully I won’t get so upset with myself about how awful I was to my parents.

Much love…

TIP #13: My Past: Halloween and Internet Addiction

With my 20 year high school reunion happen soon and the arrival of the scariest month of the year, I talk about Halloween when I was a kid, why I don’t want to go to the reunion, my internet addiction as a teenager, and a few other things. (Sorry. Internet is out and can’t remember. Feed won’t be updated until I get a connection again.)

Hi, October!

Welcome to October!

You know what that means, right? It means it is creepy and spooky month! This month, I’m planning to tell you about the spooky things that have happened to me. I’m also going to talk a little bit about my childhood and Halloween in particular.

This month, I’m also hoping to show you a new (and marginally improved) podcast episode guide and, later this year, implement a little system to reward those people who have helped my podcast and website improve and thrive. This means that people who have passed around my website’s URL, talked about my podcast, have a link on their website, or left regular comments will be able to access the podcast episodes that I don’t post. That’s just the beginning though. I’m adding options that people can contribute to my website (if they want to) and being rewarded for it. 

I’ll say more about that after I get some new and slightly rejected podcast material. I’m also thinking about releasing my very old idioPod episodes (from 2006 to about 2008) as well to those who support me in one way or another.

We’ll see how it goes!