Reappearing Past

It figures that months before I get married, the guys I like are coming back to me and asking me whether I am single or not. I am always completely honest and tell people that I’m in a relationship and happy in it. With a little more prodding, I say that I am getting married to someone in a few months.

I’d like to think the ghosts of my past look like this. They could also take shape of men.

I find it interesting that people who I met several years ago don’t chat with me for 3 or 4 years, then suddenly message me to ask if I am dating someone. It happens quite often. The last time this happened was just the other day and I chatted with him while I was getting ready to sleep, and next to my partner.

Even if I did end up dating the guy, I don’t think that we would have lasted very long mostly because he seemed to be very arrogant. I still think he is. I slept with him a few times and it was never really that good. It was one-sided. He is handsome and successful, but just needed to work on himself.

On the other hand, he was a little bossy which is something I can appreciate. I really like my partner’s bossiness in a way (but he goes overboard sometimes). I basically just like for someone to make decisions sometimes, if that makes sense. I can’t handle being bossed around all the time and I wouldn’t do very well in one of those weird, fetish-like relationships. That’s just not me.

How’s that for a little too much information?

I feel like when I am seeing someone, all these people who showed no interest in dating suddenly appear. Some are hard to say no to but eventually I do because I’m really happy with who I am. Some were a big no back then and they’re a bigger no now.

The way I see it is that these are all tests and no doubt they’ll start happening more since the wedding is only a few months away now. I guess that’s life though.