Terrible Re-Launch

I just wanted to apologise for the terrible relaunch of my podcast. Originally, I had planned to announce it on the first day of June and start posting new episodes starting in July. I was going to post the first episode on the first Friday of July, but realised that was the day before my wedding and I had a work-related deadline to meet that day. I couldn’t push it off to a week or two later because I would be preparing to leave or already gone.

I also wanted to have a chance to talk about a few upcoming travels in my life’s journey. I wouldn’t be able to do this if I waited until then. I also realised that I needed to have something in my podcast’s feed so I could post my show on iTunes, so I recorded that introductory podcast episode which needed to be done anyway. I wanted people to have access to that, so I got it all ready, uploaded it, and shared my feed with Apple.

THEN I thought to myself that posting that boring episode then waiting a few weeks probably wasn’t wise because, honestly, I don’t think it’s the best first impression. So I recorded another to post in two weeks after the first episode. Then I thought to myself, again, how busy I’m going to be and I probably should update every week for a while just in case I can’t post anything new while I am overseas.

I’ve recorded two more episodes and told Feeder (an RSS feed maker for the Mac) to delay the other two episodes until the time comes when they needed to be posted. Well, Feeder decided it was going to post both of them on the same day. So my iTunes feed had all my upcoming podcast episodes on it for a few hours. I was a little upset because if anybody has subscribed, they’ve probably got them downloaded and won’t have anything to listen to for a few weeks. I can’t do much about that. The good thing is that you could sit and listen to all three episodes in less than 45 minutes.

I had to quickly cobble together some images for my podcast as well and they’ve turned out a bit more grey than I wanted them to be, so I am going to try to fix them up.

I also thought about putting a podcast episode player on my website but ended up just using Stitcher to do it. They tend to insert ads in podcast episodes, which is fine because they need to make money and they’re providing a pretty useful service for me right now. I don’t mind.

I’m really hoping to do a better job in this round of my podcast. I don’t really have high hopes though because my readership has been circling the drain for a year or so. Despite this, I’m going to try my best to make at least interesting conversation.

If you want to, tell people about my podcast. Listen to it first and if you think it needs work, please tell me. Or leave me feedback on the iTunes Music Store or Stitcher. I want to make this good but felt like I might have rushed it out a bit early so some things aren’t really working out very well for me. I’m trying though! ๐Ÿ™‚

What’s This?

You might know where this is headed, and if you are crafty enough, you’ll see why! One way or another, you’ll find out in two days.

Bye Bye Google Ads and Trackers

Hey folks, rejoice for I have removed Google ads and their trackers from my web blog.

I mean, who wants to feel like they’re being stalked online? I know you don’t. I don’t either. I’ve mentioned before that I don’t expect my weblog to make me rich. I also don’t

Having said this, I do still keep up with a few other details like what country you’re from, your IP address (to prevent you from voting in a poll 18.3 billion times), what pages you visit (so I can see what people collectively are reading), where you came from (usually from search engines or other websites), and IF YOU PROVIDE IT, your name and email address. Of course, I have better things to do than mail you crap you don’t want. It’s pretty much used to answer you privately if required.

I don’t think this will make much of a difference on the speed of this website, but at least now you can browse my posts without feeling like there’s someone behind you watching everything you’re looking at.

I am leaving the small bits of advertising to my web host, Dreamhost. They don’t creepy-stalk you. Just ignore them if you don’t like them. Use an ad blocker if that makes you feel better.

Did I mention that if you click this link you save $50 off a year of hosting?

I’m also going to continue to link to Amazon for certain products. They don’t stalk you starting on my website. Once you click though, that’s them doing it, not me.

It’s April, Fool! (And Easter too)

I could be an asshole and tell you that the wedding’s off. I could tell you that I have found my long-lost sister whose name is Kelly and she’s 18 years old. I could tell you that I’m restarting a podcast or series of videos documenting my sex life. I could tell you that I’m moving far away from this country because reasons. Whether it’s one or all of these things, today is the day that I’m allowed to tell blatant lies.

It’s also Jesus’s re-birthday (not religious enough to know this) and we might have been visited by a large, mutated rabbit that left us enough sugar for the next three years (which we’d probably eat in 3 days – I’d probably eat it in 1.5).

It’s also quite a few friend’s birthday today. How about that?

I know I’ve said this before, but I hope you guys have a really Happy Easter. My partner and I (who are still engaged and getting married in less than 100 days) are spending some time together. It doesn’t happen very often, so I thought that I’d spend the long weekend together since, you know, we never get this opportunity.

We had to change our clocks to go back an hour, so I’m pretty confident that my day will be pretty unpredictable. Since today’s a holiday and it fell on a Sunday this year (like every year, duh), I have Monday off too! Hoorah!

Happy Easter!

Peeps are really hard to find in Australia. When you finally find them, you discover that they’re about $10 per package.

Before I forget, I just wanted to wish everybody a Happy Easter!

It’s not often, but my partner and I have similar days off, so we’re going to be hanging around together for a while. I have to return to my workplace this morning because I totally ran off with one of the keys. Otherwise, I wouldn’t have to go. I was already home when I found it in my pocket and it was already too late to go back. My track record keeping up with keys isn’t that great. I either come up with keys that aren’t mine, I can’t find my own keys, or I forget to bring them.

Anyway, I hope you have a nice holiday. I love Easter in Australia because it’s a four day affair. A lot of stuff is closed (especially in a smaller city), but I’ll manage. I just gotta get this guy out of bed to get dressed so we can go return this key.

Bye for now!

Family and Friends Back Home: Check

Classy wedding cake, because I’m just that classy. (Actually, I’d love about 8 of these right now.)

Yesterday, I finally told my friends and family in the USA that I am getting married.

I explained to them why I am doing it here rather than the USA (which didn’t include anything about the government). I explained our need for privacy while everything unfolds. The good thing is that I got a lot of positive messages. I was expecting for a few people to ask me those “fun” messages like “Who is the husband and who is the wife?” No one did, so I’m secretly bummed out.

I’m not so sure what the next chapter in my life will bring, but I’ll tell you now that what I am in now is just so busy, I am really wanting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. For the first time in a long time, I am really energised about my career and I’m looking forward to see where I can go with it. I’m trying to connect it in a way that when, or if, I move back to the USA, I won’t have to start with a really terrible job.

What’s next is that I need to tell the people HERE what’s going on. This is going to be a little harder because I’m not having a big wedding and I have only a few open spots for people. I know that I’m going to have my good woman friend come. (I love her to death. I actually wanted HER to officiate it, but I thought that might be too much for her to do given how busy she is with everything else.)

I am hoping that it all works out well and that I have a long, happy life ahead of me after the marriage bit. I seriously don’t want to fuck this up and divorce him just because I can.

Fine

People have been telling me that they’re worried about me and I’m not so sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing. I haven’t exactly been the most social butterfly lately and I think people link that with being depressed or something. I’ve complained lately that I’ve been so busy, I’ve been getting a bit more sick lately, but it doesn’t mean I’m depressed or anything. I just make myself a lot busier than I really should be. I have told people that if I’m not this busy and inflicting some kind of pain on myself, then I feel like something is “off”.

That’s probably not the best, or healthiest, way to think.

If people don’t hear from me in a while, this is what they think. ๐Ÿ˜‰

Since I’ve moved out of Melbourne, it’s been a bit hard to catch up with people as often as I used to. It takes me a while to know people (I’d rather be around friends rather than acquaintances). I don’t think I’ve got trust issues, but I’m one of those people who just don’t require to be around people all the time. I’d rather have a few really good friends than a lot. I’m totally happy with my alone time (most of the time) though it can sometimes be excessive. I don’t really notice it too much though a lot of other people do.

I also get incredibly anxious in social situations. You know how people have this invisible bubble around them where they get super uncomfortable when someone’s in it? Some people’s invisible bubble is really small. Mine’s pretty big. I don’t like people who are that close to me and during the photo shoot the other weekend, it was even super hard to have my partner that close to me (but at the same time, it was nice because we don’t get that close very often).

Seriously, I’m good. I am not unhappy, depressed, or anything of the sort. I’m just a bit busy and trying so hard to keep that culled a little bit. I am thinking of ways that I can de-stress myself, even if it means giving up some of the things I do to keep myself busy.

Month-long Sporadic Posting in My Weblog

Hey there. I think I forgot to mention that my posts here will be a bit sporadic for the next month. Oops. It’s just that busy time of the year right now, so I tend to forget to post here. Without saying too terribly much, I’m doing full-time training for the next month and I am absolutely knackered at the end of the day. I pretty much come home and fall asleep. I get up for a bit to eat, and then go back to sleep and get a half-assed night of sleep. There’s just too much going through my head right now and it’s preventing me from getting good quality sleep.

Over the weekend, we took our pre-wedding photos and I’ve seen some of them. The pictures are okay and I don’t really think I’m going to share any of them here on my weblog, but if you’re interested for some strange reason, just message me and you can see some (assuming I know you).

I have just been really tired, and at the same time, pretty anxious about everything. I think that’s what is wearing my energy thin. As small and simple as things are sometimes, I always feel the need to over think everything. It’s one of the things about myself that really irritates me. The frequent trips to the bathroom, the always-looking-like-I-just-saw-a-ghost look, the trembling like a leaf, it is all a bit irritating.

Anyway, I don’t want to keep dwelling on these things, so I’m heading off. I’ll see you guys a few times over the next month. ๐Ÿ™‚

About My Last Deleted Post

Yesterday, I posted something about a certain group of people and I really shouldn’t have typed it. Even before I pressed the “publish” button, I knew that I shouldn’t single out a group of people based on where they’re from. It is not nice and it’s never a good idea. It’s even worse judgement on my part for taking the step of publishing terrible stereotypical garbage. I will be a little more careful in the future.

I know that I don’t have a free pass to say mean things about people of my partner’s cultural background. I know for a fact that everybody isn’t the same, and it the way I wrote what I wrote made it sound like I was making a point to bring out the negatives. Bad, Ben! Bad!

If you read it before I deleted it (because I left it up for about 8 hours), I am sorry for being so dumb and for being an asshole.

A general of mine is to be nice to everybody, regardless of where they’re from, what they believe in, etc. I moved away from the place I grew up in to get away from that. I shouldn’t become what I don’t like. (I do give people back home a hard time for being morons though, but if you went there, you’d see what I mean!)

It’s one of those times that I’m glad more people don’t read this. ๐Ÿ™‚

Anyway! What’s happening? I’m still sick. My throat is hurting a lot more. I’m coughing a lot more. I took a Benadryl about an hour ago. I really wish I could sleep this off. I’m being forced to be productive and I’m in a time period where I have no choice but to work through the pain and illness. I’ll be back soon with some better stuff. Much love to you all.

Happy New Year

Happy New Year!

May your 2018 be everything you hope for, full of nice surprises, love, prosperity, and magical weight loss coffee that doesn’t require you to watch what you eat or go to the gym! (Yeah, someone’s been peddling this crap on my Facebook lately: Today’s version of the snake oil man.)

I am going to continue my journey to better my career and hopefully do something about my recent weight gain before it gets to the point where I can’t do anything about it.

No one really knows what the future holds for us, but no matter what, we can make it good by focusing on the good things (as small as they might be) or we can can make it terrible by focusing on the horrible things that happen. We can always find some good in any situation even if we have to be really creative about it.

So, 2018, bring it on.

Edit: Oops. Meant to post this at 5 pm here so that it’s midnight in Texas.