It’s April, Fool! (And Easter too)

I could be an asshole and tell you that the wedding’s off. I could tell you that I have found my long-lost sister whose name is Kelly and she’s 18 years old. I could tell you that I’m restarting a podcast or series of videos documenting my sex life. I could tell you that I’m moving far away from this country because reasons. Whether it’s one or all of these things, today is the day that I’m allowed to tell blatant lies.

It’s also Jesus’s re-birthday (not religious enough to know this) and we might have been visited by a large, mutated rabbit that left us enough sugar for the next three years (which we’d probably eat in 3 days – I’d probably eat it in 1.5).

It’s also quite a few friend’s birthday today. How about that?

I know I’ve said this before, but I hope you guys have a really Happy Easter. My partner and I (who are still engaged and getting married in less than 100 days) are spending some time together. It doesn’t happen very often, so I thought that I’d spend the long weekend together since, you know, we never get this opportunity.

We had to change our clocks to go back an hour, so I’m pretty confident that my day will be pretty unpredictable. Since today’s a holiday and it fell on a Sunday this year (like every year, duh), I have Monday off too! Hoorah!

Happy Easter!

Peeps are really hard to find in Australia. When you finally find them, you discover that they’re about $10 per package.

Before I forget, I just wanted to wish everybody a Happy Easter!

It’s not often, but my partner and I have similar days off, so we’re going to be hanging around together for a while. I have to return to my workplace this morning because I totally ran off with one of the keys. Otherwise, I wouldn’t have to go. I was already home when I found it in my pocket and it was already too late to go back. My track record keeping up with keys isn’t that great. I either come up with keys that aren’t mine, I can’t find my own keys, or I forget to bring them.

Anyway, I hope you have a nice holiday. I love Easter in Australia because it’s a four day affair. A lot of stuff is closed (especially in a smaller city), but I’ll manage. I just gotta get this guy out of bed to get dressed so we can go return this key.

Bye for now!

Family and Friends Back Home: Check

Classy wedding cake, because I’m just that classy. (Actually, I’d love about 8 of these right now.)

Yesterday, I finally told my friends and family in the USA that I am getting married.

I explained to them why I am doing it here rather than the USA (which didn’t include anything about the government). I explained our need for privacy while everything unfolds. The good thing is that I got a lot of positive messages. I was expecting for a few people to ask me those “fun” messages like “Who is the husband and who is the wife?” No one did, so I’m secretly bummed out.

I’m not so sure what the next chapter in my life will bring, but I’ll tell you now that what I am in now is just so busy, I am really wanting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. For the first time in a long time, I am really energised about my career and I’m looking forward to see where I can go with it. I’m trying to connect it in a way that when, or if, I move back to the USA, I won’t have to start with a really terrible job.

What’s next is that I need to tell the people HERE what’s going on. This is going to be a little harder because I’m not having a big wedding and I have only a few open spots for people. I know that I’m going to have my good woman friend come. (I love her to death. I actually wanted HER to officiate it, but I thought that might be too much for her to do given how busy she is with everything else.)

I am hoping that it all works out well and that I have a long, happy life ahead of me after the marriage bit. I seriously don’t want to fuck this up and divorce him just because I can.

Fine

People have been telling me that they’re worried about me and I’m not so sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing. I haven’t exactly been the most social butterfly lately and I think people link that with being depressed or something. I’ve complained lately that I’ve been so busy, I’ve been getting a bit more sick lately, but it doesn’t mean I’m depressed or anything. I just make myself a lot busier than I really should be. I have told people that if I’m not this busy and inflicting some kind of pain on myself, then I feel like something is “off”.

That’s probably not the best, or healthiest, way to think.

If people don’t hear from me in a while, this is what they think. 😉

Since I’ve moved out of Melbourne, it’s been a bit hard to catch up with people as often as I used to. It takes me a while to know people (I’d rather be around friends rather than acquaintances). I don’t think I’ve got trust issues, but I’m one of those people who just don’t require to be around people all the time. I’d rather have a few really good friends than a lot. I’m totally happy with my alone time (most of the time) though it can sometimes be excessive. I don’t really notice it too much though a lot of other people do.

I also get incredibly anxious in social situations. You know how people have this invisible bubble around them where they get super uncomfortable when someone’s in it? Some people’s invisible bubble is really small. Mine’s pretty big. I don’t like people who are that close to me and during the photo shoot the other weekend, it was even super hard to have my partner that close to me (but at the same time, it was nice because we don’t get that close very often).

Seriously, I’m good. I am not unhappy, depressed, or anything of the sort. I’m just a bit busy and trying so hard to keep that culled a little bit. I am thinking of ways that I can de-stress myself, even if it means giving up some of the things I do to keep myself busy.

Month-long Sporadic Posting in My Weblog

Hey there. I think I forgot to mention that my posts here will be a bit sporadic for the next month. Oops. It’s just that busy time of the year right now, so I tend to forget to post here. Without saying too terribly much, I’m doing full-time training for the next month and I am absolutely knackered at the end of the day. I pretty much come home and fall asleep. I get up for a bit to eat, and then go back to sleep and get a half-assed night of sleep. There’s just too much going through my head right now and it’s preventing me from getting good quality sleep.

Over the weekend, we took our pre-wedding photos and I’ve seen some of them. The pictures are okay and I don’t really think I’m going to share any of them here on my weblog, but if you’re interested for some strange reason, just message me and you can see some (assuming I know you).

I have just been really tired, and at the same time, pretty anxious about everything. I think that’s what is wearing my energy thin. As small and simple as things are sometimes, I always feel the need to over think everything. It’s one of the things about myself that really irritates me. The frequent trips to the bathroom, the always-looking-like-I-just-saw-a-ghost look, the trembling like a leaf, it is all a bit irritating.

Anyway, I don’t want to keep dwelling on these things, so I’m heading off. I’ll see you guys a few times over the next month. 🙂

About My Last Deleted Post

Yesterday, I posted something about a certain group of people and I really shouldn’t have typed it. Even before I pressed the “publish” button, I knew that I shouldn’t single out a group of people based on where they’re from. It is not nice and it’s never a good idea. It’s even worse judgement on my part for taking the step of publishing terrible stereotypical garbage. I will be a little more careful in the future.

I know that I don’t have a free pass to say mean things about people of my partner’s cultural background. I know for a fact that everybody isn’t the same, and it the way I wrote what I wrote made it sound like I was making a point to bring out the negatives. Bad, Ben! Bad!

If you read it before I deleted it (because I left it up for about 8 hours), I am sorry for being so dumb and for being an asshole.

A general of mine is to be nice to everybody, regardless of where they’re from, what they believe in, etc. I moved away from the place I grew up in to get away from that. I shouldn’t become what I don’t like. (I do give people back home a hard time for being morons though, but if you went there, you’d see what I mean!)

It’s one of those times that I’m glad more people don’t read this. 🙂

Anyway! What’s happening? I’m still sick. My throat is hurting a lot more. I’m coughing a lot more. I took a Benadryl about an hour ago. I really wish I could sleep this off. I’m being forced to be productive and I’m in a time period where I have no choice but to work through the pain and illness. I’ll be back soon with some better stuff. Much love to you all.

Happy New Year

Happy New Year!

May your 2018 be everything you hope for, full of nice surprises, love, prosperity, and magical weight loss coffee that doesn’t require you to watch what you eat or go to the gym! (Yeah, someone’s been peddling this crap on my Facebook lately: Today’s version of the snake oil man.)

I am going to continue my journey to better my career and hopefully do something about my recent weight gain before it gets to the point where I can’t do anything about it.

No one really knows what the future holds for us, but no matter what, we can make it good by focusing on the good things (as small as they might be) or we can can make it terrible by focusing on the horrible things that happen. We can always find some good in any situation even if we have to be really creative about it.

So, 2018, bring it on.

Edit: Oops. Meant to post this at 5 pm here so that it’s midnight in Texas.

New Coat Of War Paint

winter

I have been waiting for Thanksgiving to be over because I wasn’t really a big fan of the dead leaf autumn look (brown, orange, yellow, etc). In the matter of a week, my favourite time of the year is upon us. Well, it’s certainly not my favourite time of the year in the southern hemisphere, but it is in the northern hemisphere and that’s what counts, hmm?

To show my love towards the colder months that I wish I was in right now, I decided to change WordPress themes and do some colour changes.

Of course, when I do changes from one theme to another one, stuff can get seriously fucked up. Things may not look so great, and I’m going to try to find and fix them myself since the number of visitors I get here is lucky to go into the 3 digit range. (Sorry for refusing to put all my dirty laundry up on Facebook, guyz.)

That’s it for now. Welcome, a little early, December and wishes that it was winter again.

Happy Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving to you and yours!

Don’t worry. I’m not going into social justice warrior mode for this post. I wouldn’t anyway. I wanted to wish my American readers a very happy Thanksgiving, no matter what you’re doing and whoever you’re doing it with.

One of the questions I’m asked is if I do Thanksgiving in Australia. I don’t. People have asked me to, but there are a few problems with this:

  • I have never cooked a turkey before.
  • I have never cooked a ham before.
  • I don’t cook meat very often.
  • I have never cooked 90% of the stuff we normally have on Thanksgiving. (I could probably make a ton of mashed potatoes. That’s it.)
  • I’m too lazy to spend a day cooking.
  • Even if I tried to cook this stuff, I probably wouldn’t succeed.
  • No cooking I do is good as my mother’s or grandmother’s.
  • It’s a ton of carbohydrates… not that I care.

That’s my list of excuses. Plus, I just don’t do it here. No reason for me to do it here, especially cooking like this on a Thursday. People will think I’ve flipped the insane switch in my head.

Twitter Changes: Follow @IdiologicDotCom to get weblog updates

Hi folks! Just a note that I am going to stop posting every weblog post as a tweet on my @idiologic account. Notice how I said every weblog post? There are some that I will still post, but they’ll be important posts only.

Instead, I am going to post them to the @IdiologicDotCom account so feel free to follow me on that account. (You can go ahead and follow because I have started tweeting from that account now and you won’t have to get approval to follow.)

The really mean thing to do would be to do this immediately, so I’m going to end posting these posts to my private account starting next year (changed).

Updated: 1 Nov 2017 with new starting date. I haven’t moved many people to my new account which kinda worries me.