I’m typing this from my partner’s brother’s place. I’m staying there tonight. It’s not such a big deal though because I do this every few weeks. Our place didn’t get flooded or burned down or anything. It’s just one of those things I try to do every so often. There’s usually quite a push from him to get it to happen. Today, it was actually one of the causes of our arguments.
Something that people who know me in real life know that I’m not the most social creature around. Some people know that I am happy being by myself 90-95% of the time. It’s not that I hate people, but I really like my solitude. I mean, I really like it.
He tends to think that it’s really easy to get me out and in front of people outside work. He thinks all my friends see me every time they ask. You can ask any of them whether I see them every time they ask or how many times I cancel on them. It’s not that I don’t like them, it’s just that I require a whole lot of “me” time and I like that time. I even need regular breaks from my partner so I usually send him over here by himself. If gives me that time I require.
I’m not so sure where it stems from. Maybe it’s that my parents didn’t really encourage me to go out and socialize. I know for a fact that my mom, sister, and me are the same way I am. My dad was a lot better. It’s not something I do well and have tried to be better at, but I’m not. I’d go months without seeing the key people in my life. That includes family when I am in Texas.
He reminds me that Indian families aren’t really like that and I need to change my mind frame in regards to seeing people who are family. It’s really difficult for me to do. What I don’t like is how he told me today that he’s just going to tell them that I don’t like them and I don’t like coming to their place which isn’t true. It’s really infuriating because that’s a lie. I did make a compromise today and came here to make him happy when otherwise I wouldn’t have bothered because the arguments we had earlier make me even less likely to want to do things for him. Things are fine now though. I’m about to head to bed but I’m definitely going to post this a few hours into the future.