It happened again. My internet was out for about a week. Weekends without unlimited* access to YouTube can really drive people crazy. It’s especially bad when the data I get from my mobile phone plan is really small.
I had been working with three different titles for my last podcast episode and didn’t know which one I was going to pick. I went with what it is on this weblog.
When I talked about addiction (in this case, to the internet back in my teenage years), it made me think what exactly addiction does to us as a person. Over my lifetime, I’ve seen people get hooked on some really awful things and for the most part, I’ve avoided it. I never really experimented with drugs of addiction. I’ve never been a big drinker (and when I do it, I end up really regretting it the day after when I realise how foolish I had become). My biggest addiction was the internet and looking back at some of my previous relationships, it is probably one of the contributing factors of my deteriorating relationships. Even to this day, I derive a lot of enjoyment from being in front of the computer, mostly coding, getting ideas, and stuff and then later, thinking that I’m not destined to pull off great things.
That’s just being hard on myself though. I’ve been working on a few things and quite proud what I accomplished with minimal access to resources. I need to get the finishing touches on the guide and show you what I’ve done.
Husband’s telling me to spend some time with him, so I’m going to go do that.
Some more stories of my past are coming. Hopefully I won’t get so upset with myself about how awful I was to my parents.