To Come and Go

Another weekend come and gone, another national holiday (for the USA) passed... and here I am yet again. I haven't really updated recently... well, at least I feel that. It's only been about 3 days I think but those three days have lasted forever it seems.

So OK, most of you know that I have full intentions of returning to the USA in the next few months. I've updated my countdown so it reflects the date that I'm going to try to go back. It's not exact but it will give a good indication on the time frame I'm giving myself.

I posted a message to my Twitter that says that I'm booking a return ticket. I think a lot of you know that it's really impossible for me to do something that's set in stone. Do I have hopes that things will work themselves out? No, because I know that it is impossible now to work things out. I know that things are really that screwed up. Especially after today's tirade about me telling him not to be racist and him telling me that he can do whatever he wants in his car and if I didn't like it to get out of the car. I can see now that he's using his "power" to make sure that he makes me know who's the boss. He expects me to do things his way as usual but I guess those are the perks of living together still and another reason I need to make like a tree and get out of here.

I realized what ugliness lies within this person and how disgusting it is to judge people based on the color of their skin or where they're from. People tend to think that I am just kidding when I say I don't like people being racist, but I'm not. There is no room for unwarranted hatred in this world of mine. But anyway...

So that's what today was like. I screamed for the minorities here. I want you all to know that. I really did. And it got me into a lot of trouble and and at the end of it, I was treated like the horrible person. What turned into a heated argument about racism ended with me being labelled as a "free rider". I know it's not going to stop. And I still firmly believe that if I worked 40-60 hours a week it wouldn't be enough. I just need to enjoy life right now, if possible.

I may or may not make any sense. But if I don't that's OK. I guess in a way, I want to get back to focusing on me but in a way, I don't want to leave an established (or half-assed established) career behind. If that's the only thing that's holding me back, then... yeah, I should go and never look back.