November 2007 Archives

Wow, 2007 is almost over. I can't believe that. I feel like I have a lot more to do this year to accomplish my goals, but I have a feeling I won't, so I will just migrate them over to next year's goals. I haven't thought much about it. Well, the new ones.

That's because I am not sure what the near future is going to bring. I am having some issues handling some things right now. I found myself to have developed feelings for someone... else. I really don't know how I can handle this than just to leave the country. I don't think it's fair to anybody involved. Not even myself.

I am not sure if I will actually go though. I'm going to try to stay but some issues need to be worked out with my partner and me. I don't think that either are working to make things work out.

Sad really.

We'll see how things go soon enough.

First off: Happy Thanksgiving ladies and gentlemen. That is, if you're in the USA or if you're abroad and American. So there, I said it. I could use that as an excuse NOT to go to class today, I'm sure but I gotta go to class in less than 10 minutes actually so this'll be a short one.

I need a job. And no, not that kind of job though I admit that it would be nice. Any offers? :)

Yeah, I know about 87% of you didn't need to hear that. But that is the nice thing, I can say whatever I want to here, of course, within reason. Such a shame that most of the time I don't have time.

The semester is almost over!!! My dream is getting closer. :)

So anyway, as I said, I need to get myself to class now. You know, sit on a bus/train for 1 hour then get there. I have a few things to do today like the report for my presentation yesterday.

I'm outta here :)

OK, that last entry wasn't supposed to say up forever. A few times I have started writing only to stop. My biggest problem is that I will write something here, look for a link and get distracted. So there. I'm still a real person. Still going to write meaningful things here.

Trust me, there's a lot going on. Like how this computer keeps wanting to give me third degree burns. I'm just about tired of having sweaty palms every time I want to type. The temp here is going up and it's just a bit pain in the ass really. The flies are psychotic and well, I'm honestly tired of it.

Did I ever mention how much I fucking hate group work in school? It is these kinds of things that make me want to say "You know, finance really isn't that bad." Oh trust me. No one can agree on one thing and I've explained 100 times how the assignment is supposed to be done - sorry for saying this, but being in a class of international students is beginning to drive me insane. There are a few people I can stand to work with but the rest need to take a fucking English class (or go to the one their scheduled for at least) I'm afraid. Still the same person (who happens to be in my group) is making me want to kick his damned head off. I hate stubborn people.

My birthday's coming up! I haven't made a big deal about it this year. There are about 10 days left. I got my first card from my aunt today. :) It made me really happy.

So, alright that is all for now. I am supposed to be working on an assignment. I could wait until my classmate gets here (one that I can actually stand)... but I need to get it done. Bye for now. Send me some love... the comment registration thing should work now. :)

A few months ago, I had signed up with PayPerPost thinking that it was too good to be true, but it's really pretty darn sweet if you ask me. I haven't really done any posts for them until today but some advertisers are willing to spend some big bucks for you to promote their websites, services and such.

If you can get paid to blog, I say why not. It can definitely help me take care of some of my costs here like those pesky train tickets or, hey, how about a new iMac? I do need to get myself a new computer at some point. I really do.

Now that I think about it, I should have signed up with them a long time ago or at least taken them up on their offer sooner. But that's okay, I'm sure it will be a lovely relationship.

Over the years of having my own weblog (before they weren't even called weblogs) I have run into some pretty shady deals and it took me FOREVER to earn any money. Most of them I wouldn't even receive anything because I didn't meet their minimum payment (and it would take me 100 years to get there) but yeah, at $7-20 (or more) a post, it won't take me long at all. Some people have already earned into the $1,000's! I could wipe my debt out in no time! Heh heh.

So yeah, if you have a weblog somewhere, you can make some money too! Just click here to get started.

Yeah I know, I'm addicted to my weblog.  No, wait a minute, I'm not.  I am in the mood to type something before I go to sleep.  As we've seen over the past few days I am working slowly on my website and within a month I should have a nice little announcement coming up.  No big promotional images for it yet but yeah, something new is coming.  Definitely.

Sad thing is that I haven't been keeping up with people's podcasts lately.  I feel a bit bad about that but I don't know when I would have time to listen.  So I guess I could download a few of my favorites and have a listen.  I seriously doubt that any of them even read this anymore and I know it's too much trouble to leave a comment so I'll never know - and no that's not sarcasm.  I made it difficult for a reason.  Had it not been for people telling me and everybody else in the world that they need a bigger shlong, then I wouldn't have to do things like that, right?  Damn lazy people.  But hey, I've been spam-free since I disabled anonymous comments!

Oh, and comment-free too!

I had a great idea but I am not going to deal with it.  Not only would it take a huge amount of time to manage but I doubt these "ideas" are good ones because we all know that when ideas hatch, they're not always the best thing.  For example, my musically-centered websites that never took shape.  I really want to get out of my money slump but I guess that what needed done doesn't need done anymore in the real world.

I am hungry but can't eat.  My stomach feels like it's full of bricks.  Not good at all. :(

With that said I need to get out of here.  I like how my laptop's keyboard ignores comments 97% of the time.  Maybe i shouldn't use as many anymore.  That and the letter S.  Piece of crap - I'm so tired of it already.

Much love, folks.  I'll be seeing you.

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Have I ever expressed my hatred towards Australian yogurt? It's pretty damned gross. It's taken me about 30 minutes to eat one of the small tubs. Everytime I take a bite, I put on my face that says "Yum. Yum. This tastes like shit." The "natural" yogurt is the grossest. BUT my stomach needs it. As of late, it's not been very kind to me. I probably should go to the doctor.

I'm actually going to go to class today because I have to. It's incredible that I have missed as much as I have in the last few months. I'm sure that I'll have to make up class time pretty soon.

And of course, now is the time for me to leave... before 6:30 am! Oh I am hating this.

Hi folks.  I haven't really said anything lately, have I?  But did you notice that the front page has changed?  Well, it did.  I updated it to show the latest 3 posts to this weblog.  It's still not 100% finished, but hey, it's getting there.

So yes, how are you all doing?  I'd love to say that I've been doing better but I'm not.  In fact, today I skipped class because I just don't feel like going.  I didn't sleep well last night probably because I ate too many tacos.  The other part is that I am really stressed lately.  I have really been thinking about leaving Australia.  Honestly, I'd love to.

The backlash of that is that I would be giving up on my relationship which is sad.  Over the weekend, I found dozens of letters I wrote to my partner from 2000.  It's sad that since then, things have changed a lot.  The relationship has definitely gone stale (which I guess is better than sour).  It's very frustrating.  Really, I feel like I am alone over here for the most part.  I just don't get any emotional support. 

That's lead me to be very uneasy lately.  And of course, I'm an emotional mess.  But I'm getting to the point when I don't care.

So yes, here I am.  I'm so tired and so bored with life.  OK, so I'm not suicidal or anything... such a shame too.

We'll see how things go.  I just put everybody on a bit of a "Quitter Watch" for a while.  How's that?

Hope you all are doing well. 

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Don't you hate when someone says that they're leaving (by IM) and they don't do it for hours? It still says they're online and not idle. Hate that. Don't you hate when someone says they're getting offline and they don't do it? Well, right now that's what I'm doing. I thought it was a good time for me to sit in a vat of whipped cream and type you guys a lil' sumthin'.

God, this place is getting on my nerves. I don't think I need to reiterate how pissed I am where I am living. In the smack dab middle of nowhere. I have to take a bus here that has about 200 people in it. 80% of those 200 people (which is 160, geniuses) are in the most irritating age range, from 12-16. Everyday I wish that a flesh eating bug would come in and eat everybody in that bus that is that age range. Instead of getting home around 3:15-3:30 everyday, now I get home around 4:30. And the 30 minutes it takes me to get to my house is usually a chalkboard scraping experience!

I'm upset that Gilbert is moving to Sydney and I'm staying here. Sure, I could go but I'd have to stick around Sydney for 6 months. No one really wants that. He's going to miss my birthday, Christmas and New Year's Eve/Day. Then chug ahead further and he won't be here for his birthday either... let me ask you fine folks, isn't this one of the reasons why I flew my stupid ass here? (And at this point, I am going to call myself stupid... stupid and gullible.)

I'm incredibly mad about that. Very. But I guess life goes on. People are hanging on my every word now regarding heading back to the US. And wouldn't it be convenient for me to pack my shit (tee hee) and take the next flight out of this country of pain? Well, as I've said before I can't "afford" to do that. Actually I CAN, but I don't want to go back to the US with nothing. I refuse to so I have to sit here and take ass raping after ass raping. And these ass rapings aren't good at all.

Oh, but I did go somewhere with Gilbert on Tuesday. I went to Portsea which is very nice. It's a shame I didn't take too many pictures because my camera is an absolute piece of shit. I had to use Gilbert's camera which is missing the recharger. So yeah. But still these beaches are like 4,300,000% better than they are in Texas. I wanted to go snorkeling so bad but I am still mildly injured. And plus the water feels like ice (for now... global warming is going to take ova')

So that's it from me. Nothing too exciting going on besides me being sick of shit here. But I deal. I always have to. Thank god for burger night.

I did it again. Yesterday I went to the beach with a very cute friend of mine... and I slipped and fell on some rocks at the beach. I cut my foot all up but not as bad as last time. My shoulder is all bruised and may I say that the water was freakin' cold! Damn cute people for distracting me! But I am fine. Just a few scratches is all. I know that's not much to say but this won't be too long.

Rain... tired of it already.

Bye for now.

I'd love to open one of these on a different note rather than "Hello there". So this time I won't do that. I have about an hour before I need to head off for school (but I'll still miss a class, but oh well). I wanted to make this weblog entry less about me and more about the world around me. I guess some of you are tired of the focus on me, me, me, me, me! I don't blame you. I'm not that exciting, I'll agree!

But yeah, I'm going to bitch about stuff anyway. Like those damned presentations I have to do a few days apart from each other - plus a report. Not only that, I am in a group for one of them that I hate the guy. Then there's another guy (who I think is really, really cute... so it's worth it) who is lazy. That leaves me with 2 other people that I don't really remember. Oh, yes, and a girl who I adore. She shares my hatred towards the guy. Not only that I have to work with him in Dec. These classes are really presentation-heavy. I guess it does beat doing 1,500-3,000 word essays though.

OH, yes, more stuff you don't care about. I scrapped the "new" version of my website for a slightly newer one. I actually nabbed the design from someone else and I'm taking a look at the code for it. I feel bad for doing that, but it's actually great. Everything's basically on one page. Convenient, eh? But we'll see if it lives through thick and thin and actually makes it out of the closet. The big problem is that I have to reimplement a lot of things if I change designs. I hate doing that. Right now it looks like my templates for my weblog and little polls will have to go. Anyway, boring...

Did I mention how much I dislike living where I'm living? It feels like it's in the middle of nowhere! Yeah, there's a bus that goes right up to the driveway, but it still takes forever for me to get anything done. I went from traveling for an hour and fifteen minutes round trip to about 2 hours. Basically, I waste two hours everyday when I go to class.

Well... okay so I didn't get much accomplished here. So sue me (or at least TRY... you wouldn't get much.) I have to get ready to leave. If it were up to me, I'd skip today. I've already missed about 20 hours though so I have to go whether I want to or not. Bye folks.