Hi everybody.
Well, the weekend is almost over for me. I had a four day weekend (which really isn't over until after tomorrow).
Friday, I spent just relaxing. I should have done plenty of things but I didn't. I also was forced to go to a party that night. Well, I had not really planned to go, but I did and found it to be like good ol' times (sarcasm there, folks) and there were a lot of Filipinos there. It took me back into these bad flashbacks when the ex and I used to go to those kinds of get-togethers where I would feel a little bit left out. But of course, crappy things happened to me before I got there so I was pissed. I was giving off some really bad "go to hell" vibes like I do at the clubs when I go.
Around 10:30 pm I got a phone call from one of my friends here and I walked out of the place (and you need to buzz someone to let you in once you leave) and I walked around the streets of St. Kilda. And damn was I a bit scared. My friend that called came to "rescue" me from the throng of Filipinos. He was actually going to go in (I think) but couldn't find a decent parking spot so I went home with him and showed him how to use his MacBook. It was nice at that point because he's a nice guy.
Saturday, I spent with Gilbert. He really dropped a lot of cash for me that day and by the end of the day, I didn't really feel very good about that. He paid my friend for the Tori Amos ticket, took me and my friend out to lunch and then bought me more food. He's a nice guy. I don't really give him credit for a lot of the good things that he does. And he deserves more than I can ever give him. But yes, we spent the day together.
Today is Sunday where I have sat on my ass at home most of the day doing nothing. Really. I've been on the computer most of the day. I'm sure it's driving him insane. In fact, I'm going to have to study soon. Also, an important note, is that most of the Filipinos that I saw at the party have been sending me messages and I felt like I needed to apologize for just walking out and not telling anybody where I'm going. Very sad really. I sometimes feel like I don't belong or I'm just not as cute as I used to be. Truth or not, I just don't know. But I did talk to one who just left his relationship and it's hard on him. I could tell by the advice he was giving me that he was still very heartbroken. I feel like I need to help him and I don't mind. He seems like a really nice guy who just needs a few good, decent friends to do things with.
Anyway, I know this is just a summary but I'm starving and I need to just... I don't know, eat or something. I will update more often. A new website should be unveiled sometime in August with a choice of BLUE or RED. How exciting. Bye for now.
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Tags: relationships, filipinos, love, macbook, weekend