June 2007 Archives

This marks the 200th entry in this blog. So hooray. I hoped to put something a little more meaningful here, but oh well.

Well, it seems like this weblog (along with the website), is dying. So I am at the point again that I may go ahead and close shop after the registration expires. I have another weblog that I keep up to date (at least two or three entries a week) and it's a lot more interesting. It really is.

I had planned to put details about my very personal life here but... I haven't. And I am not sure if I want to.

You see, over the past several years I have generally shied away from posting my personal life on the web. Why? There were people who were reading it and going totally crazy about what I put there. They'd ask me "why didn't you put me in there" and "when did you do that" and "why did you say that" and well, I got tired of it. I went from telling 95% of my personal life to telling about 15% of it. I turned something that was interesting to read into something that was a chore to read and I think I'm still at that point. But I do think that percentage has gone up to about 30% since then.

I pretty much feel like no one really wants to hear about the life of a guy who's in a relationship.

I went from like several hundred people a day to about the same amount of people per month. So something definitely is wrong here.

It goes to prove that you can't be gay on the web without putting naked photos everywhere or talking about all the "gay" things you did over the weekend. If you're not a stereotypical gay male, no one cares. I've learned that... and it's sad that people are that shallow-minded.

So with my 200th post and whopping 39 comments over the past two years I thought I'd share that with you. My renewal of this website may end in less than 9 months. (Is it even that long?)

Anyway, that is all. Enjoy the weekend. I'll be back when I care a little more. Until then, you can go to my MySpace page and read bits and pieces in the blogs I post there.

Oh god, I am really cold. Bad news is that the heater (the one heater in the house) stopped working yesterday. So it's about 40 degrees inside. I'm wearing sweatpants, a tight shirt, a robe and wrapped up in a blanket and I'm still cold. I've been sneezing like crazy today too and blowing my nose a million times. Oh, and I've been farting a lot...

I'm so sick and tired of winter. I really am. Again, I am a bit ill-prepared for winter. I wish that it stayed warm here.

Today is my last day of freedom before I go back to class. Such a shame I will most likely be wasting it but I am so stuffy and stuff. I might have to go buy myself a space heater from the grocery store.

I did buy some grape jelly (for $9.40/jar) yesterday and some Reese's Pieces too. I missed grape jelly. It makes me hungry for breakfast sausage... something I doubt they have here.

Gilbert and I are doing just fine - no real arguments or anything or unfairness going on. So I am fine. I still miss home.

I had some dreams last night about bad plumbing in my grandparents' house. Did anybody know that I do not like bad plumbing? I mean like leaky pipes and stuff... or when the water faucet pours really badly and I put my hands under the water and it pushes out air bubbles. That's the worst. It was pouring out of these pipes in the ceiling above the sink and countertops. I do know that when I lived with Brandi in the ghetto, there was a pipe where the A/C would drain into the bathtub. Well a few times I'd be taking a bath and the pipe would pour out water right on my face. Not fun. I hated that. I also had to pee really bad earlier when I woke up but I ignored it. It was like water everywhere. I got up and had to pee so bad. Plus, it was like 10:30 and that's not good when I have to get up around 6:00 in the morning next week. Yuck.

Well I got distracted so I should leave this as it is. Enjoyed?

Just a quick entry to let you know that a few changes have happened. Mostly just code changes and stuff like that. Not something people can get excited over. I've been tinkering with some redesigns and well, it's just not coming together the way I want.

That's OK though! I have added some photos. A lot of myself. I am thinking some more will be coming soon.

Oh, and don't download Safari 3 Beta. It crashes more than China Airlines planes. Actually, I used the Windows version and it didn't crash, but the Mac version - no thanks. I'll stick with Opera. (Oh, the reason I brought this up is because the code changes I made are mostly to make Safari happy.)

Anyway, if you have any ideas or anything, let me know. Still no plans to restart the podcast. I don't think there's a need.

Nothing really to say except a few random things:

My fingers smell like macaroni and cheese. I have no idea why. I am a bit hungry I guess but there's really nothing that I want. I am hungry for some Red Velvet Cake. I have a recipe (see here) but the measurements are a bit off. I've come to notice that I can't estimate 1 1/4 cup of milk. I made some noodles last night, you know, like the ones that aren't supposed to be like soup - well, mine turned out to be like soup. And yuck.

A train accident happened really close to where Gilbert was staying on his business trip. You can read about it if you want. As far as I know, 11 people are dead and a few dozen are injured. Really sad, actually. I actually like taking the train... I think I'm going to jump on a train tomorrow and go somewhere. I will probably have to go alone.

I have a new cell phone number here in Australia. Email me if you want it but I don't suggest you actually call me there unless it's a major emergency.

This Monday is Queen's Birthday here so no school (not a problem with me) and no work (not for me either). It does mean that Gil has the day off. We're going to the Zoo on Saturday and somewhere else on Sunday. I have been bothering him to go to the mountains so I can go hiking.

No word on when to start school. I haven't checked the messages on the machine yet so maybe it'll change. Did I mention there are new pictures? Well, there are a few of me and one of my "girly", dramatic Filipino friend there.

OK that's it. I'm going to try to update a little more often. :) OK?

Yeah, I haven't updated because I've been busy battling those demons in my head. Caused a bit of blood spattering but that puts hair on your chest. And what's better than a man with a carpet on his chest?

Good news is that I am adjusting a bit better to the fact that I will be here for at least a year. I think I can handle that.

Bad news is that Gilbert's a big giant douche. I found out a few things that honestly, I'm not really allowed to be pissed off about, but let's take a look at this phrase, shall we: found out. So I am fuming and have been for a few days. It's partly why I haven't updated in a while. Right after I got used to the idea that I'll be here for a while, I was happy.

Let's put things this way: before you give something to someone that has any kind of personal information in it, make sure you delete it. Makes perfect sense, right?

Now, now, before anybody in Texas gets excited, I still have every single intention on finishing my course. I'm more determined than ever. I need this. Let us not forget that I don't want to go back and have to get a shitty job. If I do go back, I will re-enroll into school to get my RN.

I did think about heading back since I would get my money back for school (minus $200 AUD/$160 USD) but I still need to do this for myself. I know I could do it cheaper at home, and as pissed as I am now, has it ever stopped me before? There is absolutely no need for me to "get even" either and I'm afraid that's what the world is expecting.

He did bring me out to eat all my favorite things after I found out. And got me some stuff from the bakery (which puts anybody off my shit list at least for a few hours). We did talk it over but I'm still pissed. Not VERY pissed, I am just mad.

I should go out today but the temperature has only been getting up to around 50º and that's not a fun thing for me to deal with. Plus it's windy here about 90% of the week. Everytime I go out I want to go to the beach... and that doesn't work out well.