May 2007 Archives

Yeah, again it's been about a week. It feels like I barely update this at all anymore. To me, it really doesn't matter but I think that it is a good thing for me to get out all my thoughts and junk. It's been a little bit difficult to just call someone up and talk about things or go out or something. The people that I knew before when I was here barely talk to me anymore. Of course, I haven't really made a big effort to call anybody or anything.

And damn I hate this wind. It's always too damn windy.

Good news is that everything's taken care of to go to school in a few weeks. I start about a month earlier than the rest of the programs. And then I have to start earlier than that due to the fact that I have to take a few classes before I start. I don't mind though. It'll keep me busy.

Gilbert's been pressuring me to look for a job now. The bad thing is that I don't have a tax file number (the US's equivalent of a SSN). I also have no idea when my classes are and a lot of jobs are only like Mon and Wed or Tue and Thu... and finally, I have absolutely NO authorization to work... again. Does this sound familiar? Gilbert says that these are just excuses, and I told him no, it's reality. I don't want to do anything bad this time around.

Oh yes, I can only work 20 hours a week too max. So if anybody wants to give me some money, feel free. :)

But that's it. I thought very briefly about restarting my podcast but I don't know about that yet. If I do, I'll restart at #16.

Anyway - I hope everyone is doing well. Take care of yourselves, OK?

Alright, I admit. It's been a while. Yes it has been. I planned to write something here a few days ago but didn't. I am just confused if anybody even reads this anymore. I guess I really shouldn't care anyway. Right? Right.

But anyway, I will continue just in case because that's what I do.

I am doing alright in Melbourne. My relationship is doing well. I haven't done much to get myself in trouble. And that's always good. He's a bit stressed with work lately and he is a bit depressed. I've been trying to cheer him up and such and it only works minimally. When work is too much for him, I know it must be bad. He already told me that he'd be back around 10 pm tonight. He's been getting in after 8 everyday so... yeah not good. But I won't let it get to me.

School hasn't started yet and I need to get things sorted out with that. I was supposed to go but it's cold, wet and windy. Not something I need to be out in.

I am getting a bit homesick already but it will be OK. I'm having dreams about my other home a lot. Nothing bad really. I miss my dog and I miss my Wii and I miss playing World of Warcraft and I miss my family and I miss my friends. But I made a promise to myself that I would do this. So, why not?

Finally I'm here. This is my second full day in Australia and it's going well. I did come back to a messy place though. I don't think that Gilbert cleaned in months. Of course, he admitted that to me so that's OK. I have to clean this place up either today or tomorrow.

Since I've gotten here, I feel like I am still on the plane and I'm having a hard time standing up without moving around like I'm drunk. Funny thing is that I"m not drunk. Not now at least.

I was thinking that I would go to my school today but I will most likely put it off until tomorrow. I feel a bit "blah" today so I think I'll just clean up a bit around here to at least make the place presentable to myself.

It's early in the morning and I'm watching TV. I forgot how retarded some of these children's shows are. These guys on here are like 99% gay, I'm sure of it. :)

Well I haven't done much since I've been here. I'm taking it really easy because of the way I feel. And for those who are curious, Gilbert has been very sweet, kind and loving to me. I am fine. :) I missed him a lot and he has been showing me that he's missed me too. It's really sweet. It's nice to feel like I have a partner again.

That's it for now. I'm gonna look at some things to do either today or tomorrow.

I guess some of you might know now that I have discontinued my podcast. I guess that is what you get when you get into something you actually have no business doing in the first place. I really feel I have a voice only for silent movies.

Well, no, really, a few things have pushed me towards the abrupt ending. First, I need to realize that after I move (in about 2 days from now) my time will be limited... like it is now. Secondly, I have noticed that doing a podcast with someone else is about 10 times more fun than it is alone. Well, I would feel bad about doing it without Brandi. And finally, it's time to focus on my relationship, career and scholarly goals.

So now that's out of the way... what did you want?

Oh yes, that's right. In just a day or two, I will be heading off to Australia once again. I hope that things will be fine. I'm excited to see my partner but at the same time, I feel horrible about leaving my family and friends behind. I do feel, however, that absence does make that heart grow fonder. And what better way to prove that than leave them behind for a year or two?

Am I placing my boyfriend first priority over everything else? Absolutely not. That's because I really want to do this. I want to accomplish these goals MYSELF and I want to do something that no one else that I know has done. Why? I need that sense of accomplishment. I need to work hard. I need to feel like I've done something for myself!

My relationship isn't the best. I'll tell you that right now. We have issues. Some are serious issues but we still chug along sometimes unwillingly. But though I might feel like this sometimes, it's still worth something and it's still worth putting some effort into. And until I realize it doesn't work, then I will stop bothering with it. But right now, I'm really okay with things.

I won't stay here much longer because I have quite a few things to do tomorrow. So I will go now. Have a great week.

If any of you still go to my website, I've removed most references to my podcast... that is because I am discontinuing it. I will not produce any further episodes until further notice.

- idioPod is officially placed on hold.
- the number of contact options have been reduced.

I apologize for the inconvenience this may cause you, but I don't think there will be any. I need to concentrate on myself, my career, my schoolwork and my relationship. Thanks for being a part of it. It means a lot to me. If I do make another episode, I will let you know by placing a notice on THIS website.

Additionally, I will not be able to listen to as many podcasts as I used to, and I don't think that's fair to other podcasts I promised things to and didn't follow through.

Good luck all of you - stay tuned here because I will continue to update the weblog, photos and such.

Yuck. I ate way too late last night I guess because I had a horrible case of heart burn. I took some medicine about 30 mins ago for it so I feel better. I tend to cough a lot when I have heartburn and it keeps me awake. But I"m feeing better.

I was a pig last night and ate quite a lot. While eating I knew that I would have issues later but I still ate. I shared the vegetables with my dog because my dog's weird and he loves vegetables. I get Taco Bell because I know he likes the tomatoes and lettuce so when it falls out, I feed it to him. He absolutely loves tomatoes. I never really understood that.

But I wonder if he has heartburn too... because I did feed him a little bit of the meat and stuff too. Oh well, for the billionth time, I've learned my lesson. I'm going to try to head back to bed for a few more hours. This week is a busy one for me because in about a week I will be heading off to the Land Down Under.

I shall be back in audio form in the next day or two.

Have a great day and oh yes, stay away from fast food. It's bad for you.