November 2006 Archives

Well alright, so another post for another day and I'm sure there will be one tomorrow too at some point. Anyway, tomorrow is my birthday. I'm getting way too old.

Work was crazy yesterday. I ended up working at the first job until 2:30 instead of 1:30. And then I had to be at the other job at 3:00. Damn, I forgot how bored I can get. There was pretty much no mail. So a little bit I just sat there, but you know, being paid an extra hour (for 8 or 9) hours while on breaks rocks. Can't beat that with a damn stick.

Brandi had my camera... well, I left it in her mom's car a few weeks ago. I'm happy to have it back.

I'm super horny today - not sure what's up with that.

Oh yes, and Brandi... damn her... brought me out to eat today and had the restaurant sing to me. It wasn't too bad though. I got some free ice cream and strawberries in a cinnamon cup. I love stuff like that.

I'm also rethinking joining the gym. I sorta need to start going b/c I know that I'm not going to get enough exercise at this job. I know I have another one but it's only 1 or 2 days per week.

Anyway, good day to you all. I gotta shave and leave.

This isn't a really long one because I have to wake up around 4:45 in the morning. I have a shift with my retail job from 6 am until 1:30 pm and then at the post office from 3:00 pm until 11:30 pm. Tomorrow isn't a fun time to talk to me, believe me.

I did pass my test. I was hoping to get it done yesterday b/c my crew had the day off. So I worked 2 hours today. I had it done in 1 try in about 15-20 minutes. I stayed and keyed some mail for Houston though. I hope the people at the Houston plant love me now.

I learned today that one of my friends was in a car accident on Saturday in my old car. Poor old car. I loved my old car, but at least he's alright. It's sad though... but he's OK. Just some scratches and bruises - and oh yes, the car is dead now. RIP poor little Jeep. Poor Jesús.

And it's bothering me that I have lost my camera. And like a dozen other things... why does my shit keep coming up missing? I don't understand that.

Have you checked the front page for my birthday countdown? You should do it. Then you can send me some hot chocolate (mint mocha is good)... and I will be a happy guy. Well nah, no need. But anyway, it's just one of those dates to say hooray it's arrived kind of things. Birthdays suck after you're 23 when you are legal enough to drive a school bus... but of course that would drive me fucking mad.

Anyway, goodnight people.

Ah I just wanted to write a little something while I can. Tomorrow starts my other job and I am somewhat relieved. I do have to work two jobs at one time but I'm not sure exactly how long that is going to last. Unfortunately, I'd feel bad quitting the job I got first. The paychecks bite, but the work itself is never the same.

My Wii search continues. Unfortunately, businesses have jacked up the price (aka price gouging) to ridiculous levels. I want a Wii but I will be damned if I'm going to pay 2x more than it's worth - then again, when would I have time to play the stupid thing? Plus I'd be in trouble with the Chinese guy and we can't have that can we?

I have also lost my digital camera, I'm afraid. I have no idea where it can be - I looked everywhere around here and I can't find it... some of my Gamecube games are missing too... how creepy is that?

These days I'm in lighter spirits. Feeling better about life around me - and that's always a welcome thing. I am working hard to get back to Melbourne. I need to be saving money and not buying overly priced Wiis. God, and paying off my crazy credit card bill. And Christmas is coming - and it looks like I need to take a trip to the Hong Kong market for some gifts!

Anyway that's it for now. I'm sure more is going on, but yeah, that's it for now. My birthday is this Friday! You don't have to buy me anything... just be nice to me that day.

Well today's Thanksgiving. It's been a while since I've written anything, hasn't it? I can't say that I've been busy because if I did, that would be lying. And lying isn't a good thing to do though I do plenty of it.

First, I want to say thanks for reading. I appreciate you, my readers. I know there aren't a lot of you, but at least you care to come and read what's going on in my life. And I deeply appreciate that. Thank you.

Next, I have some thoughts swimming around in my head. All of this talk about countries saying it's perfectly fine for two people of the same sex to get married (or whatever) is making me think. So bad I just want to go and get my relationship legalized. Call it marriage or a civil union, I don't really care. Just as long as I am treated as an equal with every other couple that gets married.

I thought about going to Canada to get married. It does mean something to me and my relationship, though the USA is too pig-headed to ever consider it as meaning something. Australia is the same way (as long as the ugly PM is butt-buddies with our president). BUT I thought, there is a chance that Melbourne will set up a same-sex register. That's good news for me - not what I want but still close enough to let them know that I am with this man and have been with him for years.

It's getting to the point where guys just don't get me as excited as they used to. The penis doesn't get my pulse racing like it used to - but neither does a pair of meat curtains. I could definitely see sleeping next to a guy though - my sexual needs are changing - they HAVE been changing over the past year or two. As I say, sex is way overrated.

My worklife is a bit crazy now. Ooooh I just got home about 45 minutes ago from work. It's like 3:15 am now so it's about an hour ago. I am supposed to start at the post office again on Saturday but of course I have no idea what time. No one has bothered to call to tell me. Let's see how far I get having 2 jobs. 1 of them pays about 1/2 of what I make at the other place - but still fun - still some spending money. But absolutely no holiday cheer for me.

Anyway, I am tired and gassy, so I am going to pass out (literally). You have fun on your holiday if you can.

Thought I'd write a little something for everybody since it's been a while. One of the good things is that I feel much better. No more sickness except the occasional cough or two.

I am thinking I have actually wrote a few entries since then, but for some reason I don't think I published or saved them. Well, I'm sure they were pretty boring.

Over the past week or two, I have learned that my family has a lot of health problems. That's pretty scary because the same thing can happen to me. I am actually up to about 160 pounds now from about 140. The thing is that I like being around 140-150 pounds. I guess I'm really going to have to watch what I eat. Why would I be concerned about this? Because 3 out of 4 of my grandparents have diabetes. My dad has it now and I am afraid that my mother's next. What I can't understand is how it happens, and I guess I will learn more about these kinds of things when I start studying again.

The holidays are coming up (next Thursday is Thanksgiving for the USA). It's a good time for me to start healthy eating habits and I may just do that. It's difficult because I really like broccoli and cheese casserole and mashed potatoes. I need to get to the gym, really... I should put some thought into that. Really.

I am wanting a new laptop so bad but I don't think I can control myself. I definitely can't talk about this to Gilbert. I am really wanting to just replace the Powerbook with the Macbook. I am not sure if I can do that. I will definitely sell my Powerbook to anybody who wants it for $900 $800 around $700. It's worth so much more though. I might just try to keep it. (And that's USD by the way)

My friend bought me a watch for my birthday which was really sweet. He's had quite a few days off from work and he and I have been going out shopping and going to lunch and stuff like that. Today we went to Subway instead of something worse.

My goal for this month: Hold onto my money.

Meet the computer that has been causing me so much agony over the past few days:

Damn those banks that have daily spending limits on their debit cards (with a Mastercard or Visa logo). It has been a hassle for them to raise my spending limit temporarily so I can purchase it. But yeah they did it...

After trying to purchase it several times and getting an "authorization failed" error most of the times, it finally went through. And the money hasn't been taken out of my account... so I was going to cancel the order and do it with Apple.com. The employees at MacMall.com are just a bit collection of jerks who are in a hurry to get you off the phone. They told me that my order was packaged and ready to go last night (and it's not) and all they need to do is charge my account. Well that hasn't happened yet - I have no idea how long they have to scratch their balls in California but they need to stop.

After all this trouble, I think I'm just going to let my money sit in my savings account to gain some interest. Of course what I SAY and what I DO are two completely different things.

ALSO OF NOTE: On the 11th, it is my 6th anniversary with my partner! Such a shame we can't be together but it will come soon. His mom's going to be in on Sunday so I guess that's a good thing. (We have been together longer than that, but we didn't remember the exact date. I do know we were together on that date in New York, so that's what we go by now.)

It's like I've been sick forever. I wish I'd get over this stuff because it is not fun. I'm still going to work and stuff and I have no real time to get better. I actually do, but it's just not happening.

I'm still thinking about when I will leave to go back to Australia. I think going to Deakin University is scratched out for right now. I was looking forward to it though, but I really have to ask myself, do I really want to be in $52,000 (or more) AUD debt by the time I graduate? The short answer is no. I don't. That would mean after I work, I'd be paying the bank about $450/month for the next 10 years. I don't want that. So I think I'm just going to go to TAFE (or our equivalent of a community college) at first. I'll still pay about $12,000 for my first year, but I will have something to show for it. That's about $5,000 cheaper than going to the university. I could actually afford my first year at Deakin, but what happens after that? Could I really do my clinicals for 20 hrs a week, work 20 hrs a week and study for 20 hrs a week? No. Even if I work 20 hours, it still will not be enough to keep me out of debt.

So, coming from someone that has a half-assed finance degree, I think that's pretty darn good. So I will have to delay at least a full month... probably two. That's nothing really. It'll give me time to work and spend time with my family.

Tomorrow I have to take a drug test to go back to the post office. Oh my, I hope I pass. Ooooh whatever. Drugs are bad. The worst they could tell me is that my pee is ugly. I should be starting next week.

I will be working where I am working now for about 14-20 hours a week and then going to the post office and probably work 30-40. If I can handle this through the holidays, I might just be able to get me that Macbook I need to replace my Powerbook that I think is capable of causing third degree burns. Then of course, I will be selling this thing.

My birthday counter is up on my main page. How many days are left until my birthday?! Check the left side of the page.

Well some good news, especially after yesterday's bitchfest.

I did talk to Gilbert yesterday. I sent him an email about what I thought and a few times, I'm afraid that I upset him. You probably ask yourself, why even care? Kick the guy to the curb and move on with your life.

Easier said than done, I'm afraid. A lot easier said than done. It's my personal opinion that I should not give up on something that gives me the littlest bit of grief. In the past few months, I have, I admit. I gave up a job that I probably really shouldn't have - but well, life moves on. I had to pick up the pieces, place them together, use some wood glue and move forward. It's not really the same with my relationship. It's like, breaking a gigantic vase, then have lost a few pieces - or a few of the pieces are cracked so small, you can't fit them back. Then I take the "fixed" vase, drop it again, making it harder to fix. More pieces get lost, more pieces get smaller...

When you've dropped that same vase a few times, you get a pretty ugly vase. It looks more like a 2nd grader put it together than anything pretty - so you're like, ewwww. Well, the same thing is happening with my relationship.

I can't say that I am the sole problem. I can't say that he's the sole problem. We do have some issues that need to be fixed. We sometimes need to agree on things where it benefits us both.

True, if I did go to university things would be extremely tight for the both of us. And it will give me an opportunity to lessen my burden on loans. And for me to be as debt-free as possible is a good thing... so I will take a look to see what is truly the best option. My option DOES NOT really include staying here. Duh, I know that's the "best" option. But I need to be there for a year with him.

Yes, you heard me right - we're going for the interdependency visa again. Hopefully I'll have an agent for this time around. If that is part of his plans, then I must be important. Sometimes I wish I felt that important - or even worth it.

So if things must start over, I guess that's fine. I won't be delaying years, only months which give me time to get more money.

I spoke to my boss at my first job about working less than 20 hours a week. He's OK with it. So hopefully I can balance at least 50 hours a week. If not, I'm screwed eh? Getting back to the post office should be fun... mmm hmmm.

I'm outta here. Just wanted to send an update. (No one said I was being irrational either - I felt that I was being that way.)

It's convenient that 2 days before my fees were to be paid, I have been advised that it would be better for me to enroll not this semester but next semester - and at another school. The one that I was going to go to in the first place. The one that if I went to, I wouldn't have had to leave last time. So here I go, putting my life on hold for someone for another 6 months. Wasting 6 more months pretty much sitting back and doing nothing. Of course, it's all up to me and what I want to do - but I have to remember to try hard not to borrow my bf's precious money to do it.

So I guess it's to the point when I get to just speculate when I get to go back to Australia because at this point, I have no fucking idea. I guess I'll have to sit here in Redneckville for the rest of my life.

I'm looking more like I am full of shit than anything really. Here I am telling people one week that I'm leaving in mid-January then the next it's early-February. And now it's May?! I am feeling stupid thinking about it.

If I must stay in this area, I might as well do something to push my way along. So enrolling here is probably my next option which I am going to see about next week for the upcoming semester. I'm tired of sitting here waiting for someone to do something they said that they'd do, when they have no intentions of doing it.

I don't even feel like I'm in a relationship most of the time. I sit back, do what I can to maintain it when the result is pretty much nothing. I feel pretty retarded being in a place like this. I'm actually pretty tired and impatient.

My life has been a complete bore because I don't go out and spend any money doing anything. I get to blog about my boring-ass life and my dull-ass work life. It's pretty damned depressing. And when most of my comments I get on here are spam, that's even more sad. Amusing, but sad.

So I guess I leave on those words. Everybody have a nice life.